Sweetlove

2012-03-01T16:14:00.002+08:00

What if one day, everything you had was taken away from you? What if your family leaves you?What if the friend you trusted betrayed you? What if every compliment you receive was a lie? What if everyone turn their backs on you? What if all this things really happen? Its a nightmare, but it can happen.

2012-01-02T19:15:00.002+08:00

School will be starting tmrw and im so excited for it! Can't wait to see all my awesome friends tmrw. I really miss my two bestfriend! Not only that but I also miss studying and also doing my art prep. No joke like seriously. I really have no idea why i miss it. Can't afford to waste any more time this year. Gotta focus and really study hard in order to achieve my goal. I really want and really got to do well for my O's so that I will be able to get the course and poly of my choice. My mum already told me beforehand that I will not be able to go anywhere until I sit for my last O level paper. She really wants me to focus so that I can achieve good grades. But then I will need to go for my cousin wedding during April in Melacca. How awesome, not. I guess I'll be spending most of my time with my friends to have study group. And also I'll be having tuition for my maths and science every Sunday. Hope I will keep going on and on and on until my O's are over and not give up.

So ya enough about that. Yesterday had dinner at Marina Mandarin hotel with my family and also Uncle Riduan's family. It was a buffet dinner and it was awesome. Hope to go there again some other time. So after we finish with our dinner and all, we sit around for awhile and the annoying part was that the string to my palm shoe which creates a ribbon, somehow got untied! It was really freaking annoying cuz no one know how to tie it back since the string is like one long and one short so there's like a technique to tie it and all. So we all give up and I just hide the string in my palm shoe since the string is attach to the shoe. Note to self : Dont ever wear that shoe again unless really need too. So after the dinner we went to Esplanade to walk around and we keep walking until we reach MBS. We walk around and ended up going to the coffee bean. We chat about alot of things. Like what we wanna be in the future and all. So after that head back home around 1am.

Today, was suppose to meet Zati and Haikal for badminton but my mum don't allow me cuz she wants me to rest before school start. So atlast I spend my day today doing mind map and notes for the various subj. Ok got to pack my chl bag now. Bye!

2011-12-27T11:48:00.002+08:00

So yesterday went to Jurong point with my mum, sis and my aunts family. I'm never ever going to Jurong point again unless I really need to. It was so freaking pack, like seriously pack. The queue for Popular is like freaking long. Seriously long, luckily its quite fast. Bought assessment book and lots of stationary for next year. I even got myself a 2012 planner which I find is very useful since there's like notes, plans, expenses and so on. After that we went to Kiddy palace and I tell you the children in there is very hyper. Even both of my little cousin keep running around. So after that, went to look around for school bag. Went to one of the sport shop and found this blue adidas bag. So since its blue and I really love it I bought it. So happy! Now my water bottle, umbrella, stationary, wallet, handphone cover all blue. Just left with a blue pencil box. Kinda set for Sec 5! Hahaha ok bye!

2011-12-19T21:41:00.002+08:00

Just got back my results today and eventhough I did not get what I was aiming for, I still am thankful to atleast got a 15. Already made up my mind which is to take O levels. I hope I will do well for it next year. Ok bye you all! xx

2011-12-16T20:27:00.004+08:00

Plan to meet zati and haikal today to play badminton was cancel because I don't have the shuttlecock. Hahahahaha. Ok so yea I've been reading books after books to occupy my time. I really am so freaking nervous to take me result this monday. I really am. I can't sleep well. Argh 3 more sleepless night and the day Ive been waiting for will arrive..... :/ Oh and guess what? Last Tuesday my mum told me to perm my hair. I thought she was kidding so I give her the what the hell look, but she was serious so I'm still considering weather to perm or not. :/

Things change, people change, feelings change. I feel stupid really but atleast I feel happy now. I guess I was wrong all this while. Really wrong. I just realize it now what I truly feel. I don't like you, I just like the idea of having someone. Someone there who actually cares. Someone who motivates me. I feel happy because now I dont feel sad/restless all the time when you're not there.

I don't like you, I like the idea of being loved.

2011-12-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

4 more days to my N level result. I feel so nervous, like seriously. I need to occupy my time till sunday so that I wont be to nervous. I hope I'll do well and can make it to Sec5. But I just feel....... Ah why can't they just release the result tmrw! Argh damn it. I think I should just relax.

Ok so yea just got back from my short trip to KL. It was awesome but I'm getting darker due to swimming. Had soo much fun. During our stay at Nilai Spring resort, we spent our time playing badminton and swimming. And went to one of the shopping mall to shop and watch a movie. Me and two of my cousin watched Breaking dawn while the rest watch some malay movie. It was my second time watching the movie. And seriously, at Malaysia, they cut three of the part and the subtitle was like... Ok whatever so after the 2 night stay we went to KL and stayed at Royal Chulan. It was awesome. Had subway like 2 time during my 2 night stay over there. Went shopping at pavilion, KLCC area, the curve, etc etc. Went to a two and a half hour spa. It was my first time and I was freaking nervous. But it was awesome, I actually nearly sleep.

I'm actually excited for next year because my mum say that we will be going to Bandung. And we'll be going there with around 6 families, all of them are my very close relative so its gonna be awesome, hopefully its confirm! Not only that but I will be spending a few days at Melaka during April or something because my cousin is getting married. Not really looking forward....

2011-12-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

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It's been months since I last blog. I kinda miss blogging. So yeah, N's are over, just waiting for my results. Had quite a few of programs and a week of attachment in zoo. Which I really never regret signing up too but someway somehow I regret about something. Not regret, more like fucking pissed off. But i don't give a damn. Holiday's been pretty awesome. Most of the days are spent playing badminton with some of my school mates. Recently I had a short meet up with Iraa! Sadly, zati couldn't join us. But there will surely be an outing for the three of us very soon. I miss being with the two of you. This is seriously serious.

So yea, not really looking forward for a trip to KL. 5 days holiday with my relatives, and my sister won't be there. And if my sister wont be there then i rather spent time with myself at the resort rather then go do activities with my cousin. Its a 5d4n trip. 2 night will be in a resort and another 2 night will be near the city area. So at the resort the mens will all be playing golf, while the ladies will be going for the spa, and the teenagers will play badminton or do some outdoor/indoor activities while I'll be mostly at my room doing what I do best. Reading. Hahaha ok no, of course not. Most probably I'll join either the ladies or the teenage group. But since my parents book two room which is one for them and one for me(supposedly its for me and my sister), then I shall slack in my room and not socialize!And i got my own room for both hotels so I'm happy! But for the 2 nights, it'll be at the city area, near to most of the shopping area and my mom already say that I'll be free to go wherever I want to shop so I think my holiday won't be that bad, hopefully.

Sadly, I wont be able to attend my class chalet. Argh. ;(

Ok bye <3

2011-07-19T19:42:00.001+08:00

Why say it when you don't mean it? Don't give me shits please.

2011-07-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

Been having tremendous of fun in everything im doing now. The girls never fail to make a laugh like there's tomorrow. The fact that im gonna finish my art final work very soon is seriously making me happy. And i can't wait for sept baby! Hehehe! Ok minus the fact that my N lvl paper is during that period. But atleast something fun gonna happen right. Hehe! Ok can't wait. Gonna have a short break with the family at KL this weekend. Woo can't wait to SHOP!

Been having conversation with mum for my future. I just love talking to her. And the most important thing is that always remember that we must be wise enough to see whats right and wrong. And my dad, i love him to the max. Talking to him about politics and all. It makes me wiser in all this stuff seriously. And the fact that he jokes around just makes me happy. I just love my bonded family. I can't imagine how's life without all the 4 of us in it. <3

2011-07-08T23:03:00.002+08:00

Seriously this is freaking bullshit. I should have notice it all this while right? Why haven't I? Why did I actually waste my freaking time. I knew its coming. I shouldnt have press the search button right. It just hurts to know the truth. But atleast it makes me wiser to know that all guys are the same. Everyone just wants the fcuking attention. Am I right? I dont know why I'm mad. Seriously I don't. Fuck, you could atleast tell me.

2011-06-11T19:16:00.002+08:00

Not using this blog anymore since I found an app for my phone to let my feelings out. Hehe. Ok bye luv :)
(But I might change my mind in the future)

2011-06-07T12:34:00.003+08:00

Its been a while since i last blog. So yea lots of event happen this few days. Oh and yes do you know that some malaysian guys are just so cute. And im being freaking serious right now. Hahaha. Like seriously omg. Ok i know this is lame but seriously very cute. The fair ones though. Hehe. Ok whatever izyan. Hahaha.

So Abg Amir and Kak Mira's wedding is a success. Had lots and lots of fun with the relatives. But my trip to Kuantan was not as fun as Malacca though. The wedding at Kuantan is just for us to visit the girls side. But i was kinda fustrated with the weather cuz its freaking freaking freaking HOT. Like seriously totally HOT. Its so hot that I just wanna stay at the hotel room for 24hrs. So yea its only a 2D1N trip though. Was suppose to follow the rest of my relatives and parents to Malacca for the 2nd night but atlast i followed my another aunt who's going back to Singapore on the 2nd day right after the wedding. Reason is because I wanna sleep with an air-con at night. And i thought there'll be people sleeping in the air-con room at Malacca so i went home but actually there isnt. Pfft. What a waste right. So yea the trip wasnt pleasent at all! The thing about my is that I am not comfortable in other people's car. And i have no idea why! I only and will always luv my parents car. So yea the 6hours trip was pretty much a drag. It feels like 12 hours cuz I can't sleep and kept staring outside the window. And to make it worse, my stomach wasnt at its best and my heads too. But thank god we reach Singapore at ard 9++pm. So yea the next day I woke up at 12pm!? I can't believe I actually woke up late cuz I'm not that type you see. So by that time my parents has also reach Spore from Malacca. And so I went out with my parents and my aunt. My mum got what she wanted and i got my ice cream. Hahaha. Ok whatever. So yea so basically trip to Kuantan wasnt that amazing.

So yeah during the first week of my break, we had this Adam Khoo motivational workshop. I was laughing my ass out most of the time. Learn lots of thing from that workshop. Won't be elaborating because then it'll be too much.

So yea after that then it was time to get ready for my cousin wedding at Malacca. The wedding was held on a Saturday, but me and my parents went there on the thurs because we gotta get lots of stuff ready. My parents and some of their friends are the cook. So they gotta get lots of stuff ready. I was pretty lonely though because my sister will only be reaching there on the Friday night with the other two of my cousin by bus. But the other of my relatives were there and they were REALLY HILARIOUS. Esp during the meeting that was held on the thurs night. Oh and one of my uncle reaction at one point was really hilarious. HAHAHAHHA! ok i know you dont get it but i do so yea. Hahaha.

Just went out with my cousin yesterday. It was totally a last minute plans. We went out at 8pm. Went to Sentosa. Snap some shots are back homed and now I'm waiting for my cousin to UPLOAD THE PICTURES >;( .

Ok bye luvly.

2011-03-27T09:40:00.003+08:00

I miss those time when i use to be crazy. Jumping here and there. Laughing like nobody's business. Annoy my friends. Looking crazy and don't give a damn about people who think i did that to attract attention. I prefer those awesome time than now. Cause i was sucha happy girl back then but now, im just a sad asshole. Now im just someone who wants school to end fast. Just get over with the exams. Being what people want me to be instead of being myself. Trust me i didnt know why i suddenly change. Problems kept coming. It's life. Im not complaining because without problems then i wouldnt learn. Shits happen you see. But the question i keep asking myself is that, why must it be me? I try to avoid that shit but it kept coming to me. I really thank god because i can still be myself with certain people.

2011-03-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

You know I'm mad at myself for having moodswings easily this few days. Oh well what to do.

2011-02-13T20:58:00.003+08:00

Adam Khoo presentation that day was awesome, it thought me that every choice has it consequences. Settle your problem yourself. Don't include anyone in your problem. And lastly mean what you say :)

And i thought i was the only one, but no, there was others. So all the stuffs you say is just useless i guess.

2011-02-06T20:21:00.001+08:00

Don't text someone if you're just freaking bored cause you might never know if the person have high hopes on you.

2011-02-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

Single people feel jealous looking at couples but however couples are jealous looking at single people. Both have its disadvantage and advantage.

You're like taking someone's precious thing infront of them.

2011-02-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Had an awesome day yesterday with the schlmates. We went to bowl at bukit batok. Shld have come earlier so we can spend more time there :(. But really it was awesome. Sai was in my team. And hahaha thank god we didnt lose la seriously. I was like ok for the first part and last part. The middle part all longkang! HAHAHA! Basket sia! Me and sai not consistent! Hahaha. And i got one STRIKE! Hahahaha! Happy or whut! :P Ok so yea, we met at yew tee and start moving at around 430pm. Aft that we went to this place to take our late lunch. And then we went to bowl. Plan was to watch a movie but then plan fail cause there wasnt any nice movie to watch. So we then head to alif and its full. Bummer. So atlast we went to macd. Slack till 10pm. Swear it was hilarious esp the part when haikal like crazy already. Hahaha mayb due to the ketuk ketampi he need to do cause he lose during the bowling game! HAHAHAHAH! Ok soo bad! hahahhaha! Aft that we took our own sweet time to walk. And then went back home with yanna, shikin, haikal, zaini. Suddenly got the mood to take some pictures. We jump here and there. Hahahaha. Really it was freaking awesome. Hope to have another outing again! :)

Aft that reach home and i dont feel like sleeping. So i watch random movies in the living room, ALONE, till 3am. I wanna watch at my room but i don't wanna disturb my sister so yea alone in the living room, actually not scary ah. So today im gonna watch this scary movie tonight alone again. Hehehehe! Goodnight!
Bye.

2011-02-01T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hello.
So yea today like actually the last day of school for this week. How awesome. Not going to school tommorow because i guess it'll be a waste of time? Hahaha. So yea dance training is pretty ok just now. Had SS test just now. Omg i so semangat la please. Ok really i don't know what to say so ok bye.

2011-01-31T18:48:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Guess what I just found that there's only two days of school. Three actually but wednesday is some concert or something. How awesome! Happy kid. There's dance tommorow and for some reason idk why i love going to dance despite the fact that its pretty tough as in the physical training. We are like so bonded now. Awwww. I luv it. Ok so yes guess what!!! Maths marks was really satisfying! Nyeheheh.

Ok so yea, after AEP spent my time with Iraa and Zaatty. OMG I swear they very funny one! HAHAHAHAH! The different types of laughter. So cute you know. The rest had CCAs and other stuff so it was only the three of us. Had some kenduri yesterday at cousin's place. I actually wanted to study BUT atlast i didnt manage to get a single thing in my brain! HAHAHAHAH! Ok so yea SS test tommorow! Scared la ohmygoodness. Ok i want study.
Bye.

Have a safe journey Syazwan

2011-01-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hello.

So yea weekends are here. You don't know how long ive waited for weekends. Just had 5 test last week. Very happy with phy and chem results. Haven't gotten back the rest yet. I feel like as if there's alot of test this year. Seriously i hate it but i guess it'll somehow make us prepare for our national exam.

Today(28 jan), is my dad's birthday! Hahaha and he thought i forgot about his birthday! Omg! I not so bad you know. Hahah so yea my dad is the most awesome dad in the world. He always wants the best for me and my sister. He helped us alot like seriously. He get the stuff i want as soon as possible. And really im thankful for whatever he have done for me. I might be spoilt sometimes but im trying to change myself. He's just the awesomest daddy ever. Idk what life gonna be without him by my side. My luv you daddy <3

On 29 jan 2010 is the day my granny left me, left all of us. I hope she's happy wherever she is now. I really miss her. I just can't forget what she have done for me, how she took care of me, cook my favourite dishes, seeing her smile is the happiest thing. And i remember exactly what happen on 29 january 2010. I wished i was by her side on that day but sadly i gotta attend school. Nobody know when is the day they are leaving everyone right. But I know everyone will leave their loves one day. I just wish i spend alot of time with my granny before she pass away. I receive the most devastating news ever from my mum through the phone when im on my way to malay class. I really couldnt hold my tears anymore. I went speechless and just cry. She the first person that is close to me who passed away, leaving me. I know i keep blogging about her, im sorry if it irritates you. I really miss her. I seriously do. I love her and i will always will. Love you granny <3

Why don't you think before you talk?

2011-01-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hello.

So yes this week is like full of test. Can go crazy studying. Currently ive already took my chem and phy test 1 and got beack the results already. Very satisfying! First time ok! I got like 16/25 for chem. I knw its just a somehow pass but still im happy cuz i really studied and i guess this is somehow my first time passing chem 0.o! hahah and a 14/15 for physics! I could get full marks but sadly i put air instead of water! :( ok wtv hahahaha. And i just took chem test 2 on monday and phy test 2 just now. Seriously idk weather i can even pass my chem test 2. Lets just hope for the best. and im gonna hace Social Studies essay test on Thurs and Eng, Maths, Malay test on Friday! omg! ok fine wtv lets put all the test aside.

Had dance just now. Half way running (as in running outside school for stamina training) suddenly it rained heavily. I was like OMGGG! Luckily i manage to save my phone from getting it wet. Phew. So yeah since i miss dance training last thurs, i kinda miss a few steps. Warren so annoying please he's suppose to like support/carry me while im jumping at one point of time instead of support/carry he go push! And i ended up bumping into amalina. Hahahahha i swear it was hilarious+annoying. hahahahah. Ok so yes idk what i did in dance just now that suddenly my back is really painful. Bummer :(. And there'll be training again tmrw and thurs :O. Hahahaha. Really excited for SYF now cause it's awesome! :)

Eventhough March is like 1 month away from now, i already have LOTS of plan. Ahh so sad can :(. will be busy during the march holiday! OMG! :( Ok fine wtv. Everytime I'm not blogging i will always have the urge to blog and like blog like about alot of stuffs but when i started blogging then I'll be somehow blank.

Oh and did you know i luv talking to polar bear. And im a sealion. Hahhaha ok nvm nobody understand this except for Syazwan. Hahahaha. Ok so yea i guess that's all for today. Anw, I blog because i luv reading back my post and think about all the stuff i did in the past. So I'm sorry if i post to much stuff even the little details yea. I really have a bad memory y'knw.

Bye.

The only people you can trust is your luvly family and a few luvly friends.

2011-01-21T18:35:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Its been a while since i blog right. Got lots of things to share. So yes its only like the third week of school and im like stressed up. But my girls will always be there making me smile everyday. So yes, will be entering SYF this year :O. Trainings are like 3 times a week and i guess it might be increase but yeah 3 times a week is pretty tiring :(. Yknw why cause its like i have lesser time to study and do my schoolwork. If not dance then ill be doing the admins stuff. So yes this is life, but i don't really mind doing it cause i love it. Gotta enjoy it now cause ill be stepping down in about 3 months time. But no matter what i <3 dance so i don't mind going for trainings. And the admins stuffs eventhough its pretty stress doing it, its a learning point for me as it'll do good for my future(I HOPE!). Hahaha.
So yea been playing truth or dare with my girls. And i swear its hilarious. Hahahahaha! Like seriously omg. We were laughing like crazy girls in the canteen just now. And i laugh till tears came out! Hahahah! So yes, been very attentive in class lately. And for once, ive been doing my homeworks! I just started doing homework this year ok. Sat beside sai just now in class and omg freakin hilarious! We acted like primary school kids! We were trying to shoot as many paperballs in the dustbin and yes i won 2/3 games! HAHAHAHAH! Ok perangai bedak kecik -.-! But it was fun ok atleast i didnt fall asleep or something. And Physics AEP just now was freakin HILARIOUS! Hahahaha! I can't stop laughing just now. Only my class understand why physics aep was hilarious. Hahahhaha.
Art. Got an idea for my final work but lets hope itll turn out nice! heheheh. Currently on my prep work and yes im getting more commited to it nowadays. Awesome right! :>

Ok im done, bye <3

Y'knw, sometimes i wish that holidays are around the corner :(

2010-12-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

Goshh, my blog dead. Ok bye.

2010-10-30T10:37:00.001+08:00

I'm sucha happyhappyhappy girl today. :>

2010-10-29T18:38:00.002+08:00

Im happy, Im sad, Im overjoyed, Im excited, Im dissapointed, Im stressful, Im moody, Im curious. But really i don't know what im feeling right now. Cause everytime im sad you made me happy, and everytime im happy you made me sad.

2010-10-24T20:27:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for the hols to come! Can't wait for november to come! Hehehe! Okay bye!

2010-10-01T14:57:00.002+08:00

School's been awesome. Girls made me laugh all day long. Exam starting next week. Bleah, i hate you exam. Art exam is in two weeks time, prep work not done yet. Have already receive N lvl art paper, i seriously have no idea which theme to choose. Grrr ! Okay im done. BYE ! :>

2010-09-21T21:08:00.002+08:00

So hows Raya everyone ? I know its late aready but still its not wron to ask . Hahah . Raya was pretty fun for me . But the fact that im celebrating this year without the person i love soo much :< . I miss her , everyone misses her . But all we gotta do now is pray for her , hope everything is alright there . I luv you granny , i really do and i miss you . :< .

Raya wass funnn , okay for the first time , i really stayed till 3am for the first day . Last place at tampines somemore . Hahah , but was awesome , i loike . $$ , thats like the best , HEHEHEHEH ! . Hahah okay .

Been staying back like everyday these few days . Gotta say playing soccer was awesome , eventhough i kinda suck at it but ohh well , its never wrong to learn to be a better player . hahahah , macam faham jee . Okay , im sleepy . GOODNIGHT ! :> xoxo .

2010-09-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

Well , seriously people are saying something bad but then actually they themselves are doing it . Haha . Anyway , you cant trust a single soul in the world , but if you are not telling someone your inside feeling , youll suffer in the end . Even if you wanna let out your feelings in your diary or whatsoever , one day still someone gonna find out . And if youre not telling someone your inside out feelings , how do you expect for someone to help you . I use to actually not trust anyone around me because i just find that everyone being a bitch and spreading it around . But that was old school , really old times . Now things change , i have a lovely sister and two awesome ladies to tell my feelings out , every single thing , and they are always there to help me . I tell the three of them because i know i can trust them , and they are really the most caring people . I luv the three of you soo much :>

Things change . I change , you change . Feelings change . Im sorry i can't do anything about it .

2010-09-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

I had an awesome friday . What about you ? :>

2010-08-28T13:41:00.003+08:00

I want school holiday badly please :< .

2010-08-18T20:46:00.003+08:00

I will start by saying , OMG ITS ALREADY 6 MONTHS AND MY BILL IS STILL MAINTAIN-ING . Hahaha , okay thats really freakin random . Hehhee .

Do you know that things are like so different now ?
And this is really seriously true . Not only about school life y'know . Everything , and really everything is starting to change .

After the january incident which really made me totally speechless , i brokedown to tears for like 2-3 days . I think my friend will know what im refering too . I kept dreaming that someone's gonna go away , really far away . I just get this feeling , and im really scared of it . I dont wish it to repeat again , but its life . I kept tearing when i keep thinking about it , eventhough it has been nearly 7 months , i could still remember every second , every tears , every one during that particular day . I really miss those days when she was there by my side every time . Those laughters , those time at my kampung , those time when she took out all those photo albums which have been in the store room for years and frame it , those time when she hug me , those time when she always annoy me and make me cry . I really miss those time . Those wonderful time when we had together . Nobody could replace her , i love her soo much and i know she loves me too . She took care of everyone with full of care and love . And after that incident i kept thinking/feeling someone is going away . I tried getting rid of this feeling but i can't . I'm just too scared history will repeat itself .

I dont know why people are acting soo differently towards each other nowadays . Or am i the only one feeling that way ? I dont know but i really am missing the past . I hope everything is fine , really .

Pantat and Kambing , I miss you both . Im sorry that i keep changing the plans and all . Idk why but things are soo busy this few months . And yes , i really miss jalan kayu and i miss those time we have fun together and have our girls talk . Both of you are taking your O levels this year . All the best to you too , and i know you can do it . Study hard ! Love you girls ! xoxo :>

2010-08-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

Today marks the 45th Birthday of Singapore . I spent my day today with alot of DVDs and VCDs . I just don't know why i don't like going out . To me , its just a waste of time and money . Its really hard to spot me in public places . I don't like going out too cause i'll spent too much $$ . I do not know how to save nor control my spending . I take what i like and want not what i need . I know thats really bad so now im trying to learn how to control and all . I usually spend alot of stuffs in art shops . I spent up too hundreds in art stuff . I never spent below than 50 in art stuffs , don't ask me why . I just get amazed when i see paint, colour pencils, crayons, markers, colour markers, colour pens, beautiful papers and more . Ive been spending alot in acrylic paint now . But now im really cutting down , :> .

Another thing why i dont like going out is because i really don't like to take public transport . I really don't know why . I rarely go out with my friends . I usually go out with them when we go to a place to enjoy, have a chat, gossips about stuffs and of course snapping the camera . Really dont like shopping, cause to me i dont have the freedom if i shop here . Weird huh . Both my parents and sister really have a hard time in bringing me out even when they are taking me out in a car not a public transport .

Some of them wants to go out badly but wasnt allowed to but as for my case im being force to go out . Maybe because i have spent too much time on school and wants a break by relaxing at home . But mum always nag at me for not going out . How weird can my life be now -_-

2010-08-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome . I like the part when pravina and emma was at the parade square , you girls were like soo freakin awesome ! Okay so yes , been spending alot of time playing soccer nowadays ( mcm phm one) hahah . But really had lots of fun with you people :>

RHD concert was awesome really . Congratulations to all sec 3 classes . And to my class , eventhough we didnt won the prize , we won the best thing which is creating a brand new awesome family . I really love you guys . You guys were really awesome . Im really thankful to get an awesome class , luv you girls and guys ! :>

Here's an advance which for this great couple . Sorry if i post it to early , i dont think ill be posting any post on the 8th . Happy 2 years anniversary Siti and Saiful on the 8th of August . Last very long okay . Thanks for always being there for me all this while . You guys are really an awesome friend to me since sec 1 . Im sorry if ive done anything worng to both of you . Anyway enjoy your day , every single day alright . Luv you both . :>

2010-08-01T18:50:00.002+08:00

Today had some cip at west coast park . We attend the walk to donate for the childrens or something like that . Its freakin awesome kay . Hahah .

So firstly , ate breakfast with the girls at mac , then the rest came . Anw its not only my class , 3/1 was there too . So yes , when we leave mac and head to the starting point to walk , all the other people , public and other school , we already half way and we were still at mac , haha awesomezxz or what . So yes , its more like photo taking session when we were walking . I had tremendous of fun laughing and all .

So after the walk we went different ways , but atlast we met again , all of us . We fly kites . It was soo hilarious , we get free kites you see . So it kept breaking and all . And it was drizzling , but we still continued on . Izzati was really cute y'know , i think her kite really like the tree soo much . Hahaha .

So after that the guys wanted to go bowling and the girls wanted to hang out , but like again , after going different directions , we all head to the same place , PLAYGROUND , hahah . Soo much for bowling . After that , myself , iraa , izzati ,ashikin , ruzaini , adi and raziff hang out together . I swear we were like little kids . We took pictures , alot . Surprisingly the guys wanted to take pictures too .

It was soo cute yknow . We played with this idk what thing , like round round like that . Stand over there , turn the thing can make you giddy one . Hahah , i swear it was freaking giddy till i fell down . Super embarrasing okay i tell you . Hahaha . then we went to play with the swing . Iraa was our dearest photographer . So the 6 of us take pictures like every second yknow . Okay so after that , we went to the pyramid and all . Then atlast thought of going bowling but end up all playing catching . Hahaa , super tiring okay .

Myself , iraa , izzati , nadra , ashikin , elsa , clare , fiona , raziff , adi , ruzaini , afiq , kai seng , yong yang , zane and yew ann . ( Sorry if i miss out the names ) We were playing catching , i swear it was really tiring , run at sand okay . I remember one part when adi was the catcher and he was catching me and he was like running freakin fast , make me run like one monkey like that . tsk . We kept running around this thing , i swear i tired okay . Hahaha . Then after that we when to the turnturn thing again . Afiq step like not giddy like that , he was walking sideways and all but still can say see im walking straight -_-" . Hahah . Okay

After that the guys and girls left . Myself , izzati , iraa and nadra walk around . We went to this freakin windy place . Then izzati left and iraa me and nad started talking after snapping the pictures . Then we went back mccafe , iraa left .

The irritating part was that , got this three pathetic guys who were following Nad . So pathetic okay , really . Hahah , nad and me had a great laugh when they were like running to our directions and asked for number . HAHAHA , i swear it was pathetic , can call kak somemore . hahahah .

Okay im done . Good day loves .

2010-07-31T16:29:00.001+08:00

How great can my life be now ;>

2010-07-29T20:29:00.003+08:00

Its like as if you've been only for a month . I just want to say thank you for all the guidance you have given me . Not to say the disipline and all . I really appreciate it from the start . Both you and shah deserve a big thumbs UP ! Both of my freakin awesome coach have been there from the start . I hope both of you could stay , but its okay all the best in life . I hope you have fun in school ;> . Thank you once again . Ill hope my new coach will be awesome ! :>

2010-07-25T19:43:00.002+08:00

Im not in the mood for anything . Not a single thing . I had lots of fun today , but something spoils my mood . I have no idea what thing but seriously this mood is like fcuked up . Lets just hope tommorow will be awesome .

2010-07-24T21:24:00.002+08:00

Blog is like dead . Sorry i wont be updating it frequently now . School is killin me . Well , thank god this weekend will be my short break from school stuff . I loike :> . For the past weeks , ive been like spending around 12 hours in school per day . Atleast 7-8 hours of normal school timetable , and 3-4 hours of other stuff , like cca and all . Can die like this y'know . Ohh well nvm . Oh and yes , guess what , ive been visiting the clinics like alot of times already . Just this one week ive been to three different doctors . Awesome or what -_-" . Okay i shall stop . Night .

2010-07-15T20:58:00.003+08:00

People, just to inform you again, I dont add people at facebook, I mean i do add but only the ones i know . So please dont send a request to me at facebook . Im sorry once again to those who have been sending request after request . Sorry alright .

School been great . Like i say project , suffering though . Art , most of em' . Actually all of em' are art . Oh well, costume making had'nt be that well just yet . Alot of paste that needs to be 'decorated' . Shall finish that during the weekends . Lets just hope ill finish everything by next week . Boo-hoo . :<

The awesomes are really awesomes . Hahaa , thats my class name though . Racial harmony day practices/ideas are going great . I hope everything will turn out AWESOME . Haha , okay .

16 Months have passed . Eventhough we arent officially together, I like it this way . Luv you ass :>

Oh and yes , those who keep asking about the pictures i took ; photography i meant , nudge me at my msn, ill give you the link :>

2010-07-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

I own a tumblr but its more for the pictures i take . :)

2010-07-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

School was awesome but project arent awesome . Life been pretty fair . With my best girls around , ill never stop smiling . Thinking about my past have been pretty awesome . Cause i laugh like theres tommorow , with iraa . Hahah . Luv you girl . Okay im done :)

2010-07-11T21:38:00.002+08:00

Spain dont let me down tonight . My whole family watching the match , but i dont think i will watch because i really need to focus in school tommorow . Its okay , i shall watch another time cause ive recorded it . I really gotta start working hard starting from now , esp with Art and Physics and Chemistry . Both of my science suck big time . And art ? My time management sucks big time .

2010-07-09T17:53:00.002+08:00

Firstly , sorry Oneay and Pravina i couldnt meet you guys just now . Soo sorry girls . I shall meet you girls soon okay , ive not been seeing you girls for some time , as in have a long conversation . Sorry once again .

Secondly , my exam is in awhile now , and i havent finish reading , nvm , shall study aft i blog . I hope i wont fail cause i dont wanna stayback , who ones sia . Oh and guess what , i just realise that im one of the youngest in my realigious class , awesome or what -_-" .

Thirdly , Ive officially delete my tagged account . Reason is becauce , i find it pretty lame . And my number have been passed around to different people since i had an account . So goodbye tagged . And sorry i dont add people at facebook , only the one i know . ^^

Fourthly , About my number . People seriously get a life . You think fun fair issit giving people's number around to random people . Then one typical reason you people give when the person ask you where you get their number , you 'll say ' oh i dont know i suddenly saw it on my phone ' Like what the hell ? I mean come on laa , this is one typical reason . There are lots more . So seriously people , STOP PASSING MY DAMN NUMBER AROUND ! thank you .

Fifthly , i got tons of work in line . Most of them will be , art . Nevermind gotta learn multi tasking . I kinda like taking art , cause i have fun most of the time , while working of course , peace ^_^

Hey bitch , I like that you are suffering now . I wanna you to feel howd i feel . So next time use your brain . Dont act as if you own the world .

2010-07-05T18:43:00.002+08:00

Okay i know this be like toooooo late or something but guess what ?! I just watch Karate Kid . HAHAHAH . Okay , i was force to y'know . By my sister , cause she wanna treat me to pastamania and to a movie . Gotta say the movie was really a thumbs up . Jaden smith is reallyreally cuteee . Hahaha , yes i know , i ketinggalan zaman . Haha , what to do , i dont like going to the movies , i find it rather waste of time and boring , yes i know im very weird -_-" . Well you see , i rather go to somewhere peaceful instead . Hehehe ! Okay so yes , ill stop here . Will update again when i feel like it . ^_^

2010-07-04T18:49:00.003+08:00

Saturday was a blast , i like . A bbq event to celebrate sister's birthday . And guess what , theme WORLDCUP . So yeah , we bought the 32 flags . Its an awesome event . But gotta admit i was freaking sad that Brazil lost and freaking happy that both Spain and Germany won . So yes byebye Argentina , nyehehe . So its Spain vs. Germany . So which one will go to the finals ? I like both team , :( .

2010-07-01T14:53:00.001+08:00

Number one . :B

2010-06-26T11:27:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for end of year to come . Yeah i know its still long and all . That why i hope times fly fast for this one ! I can't wait to go Universal Studio with my family , and mum friend family . I heard we are overnight-ing there ! :DD , And also a holiday trip to idk where ? With mum's friend family too ! I really hope both of this will really happen . ! Can't wait ! ^^

2010-06-24T12:22:00.000+08:00

I hope you mean what you said to me yesterday night .
Luv you .

2010-06-23T10:01:00.002+08:00

Shall enjoy myself today . No stressing up . Shall let all out . So bear with me okay girls . Got alot of stuffs to talk about . Okay , can't wait . Luv you girls.

You're acting pretty weird nowadays. Not a bad weird, but total weird. Boo-hoo. Oh well , luv you ass . :)

2010-06-22T12:22:00.001+08:00

I miss the Unique Fusion babys, :'( .

2010-06-21T10:56:00.002+08:00

Eventhough i survied taking chemistry exam paper again,

that does'nt mean i like the idea of taking the re-exam.

So yes, woke up at 6.30am, just to go to school,

to re-sit for the EXACT chemistry exam paper which i failed by 2 BLOODY marks.

And the paper is 1 hour and 15 minutes,
but guess what,

I complete all the question in 5 BLOODY minutes.

So tell me, do you think its a waste of time to sit

and wait for another 1 hour and 10 minutes doing nothing.

Grr , thank god i only fail one paper.

I dont wish to come back everyday for three days to take the exact paper.

Never wish , and never will.

2010-06-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

Spain vs. Switzerland now .
Hopes for Spain .

2010-06-15T09:54:00.002+08:00

I am freakin sleepy now because

for the first time i sleep at 5am.

Do what ?

Watch Italy vs. Paraguay.

I nearly shouted alot of times.

Gotta admit im not a soccer fan, seriously.

I find watching em' is a waste of time.

But i think i was wrong cause i find it interesting to watch em' .

Ohh well , but still i dont know how to talk the soccer talk .

Anyway , Iraa is already 15th ! :))

2010-06-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

Here's an advance birthday wish for my dearest girlfriend , Nurazirah .

Hey girl , firstly happy 15th birthday when the clock strikes 12
tonight alright . Hope you will enjoy your day tommorow . I've been reading
your blog lately , and you dont sound good . I mean you have been pretty sad
lately . Are you fine ? If its about relationship thats spoiling your life ,
then ignore it okay ? Enjoy your beautiful life and don't let guys ruin them .
Move on with life okay girl . And i miss you freakin much y'know ! Lets meet up
soon alright ? The six ladies , to have fun and gossip all day . Cause i miss
gossiping with you girls already . And sorry i couldnt attend tommorow . Shall
end it now . Luv you girl ! xoxo.
With love , Izyan N.

2010-06-14T14:42:00.001+08:00

I kinda agree with this . Like seriously man . Whoa .

Born on the 27th
You have an attractive and vibrant personality. You are
a social animal and like to party. You make new friends very easily. You are
known for your good sense of humor. At times, you are very obstinate. You can
forgive but you not forget easily. In your love life, you tend to be choosy in
your search for the perfect partner.

2010-06-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

So now is world cup madness .

Family and Cute Boy supporting Spain .

So i guess its Go Spain this year . ^_^

2010-06-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

Those time when you were enjoying yourselves

its memories now .

2010-06-10T14:30:00.002+08:00

To have friends beside me was

my precious moment .

All i could think was laughters and gossips .

2010-06-10T14:05:00.004+08:00

To have climb the obstacles was one of the toughest thing .

But to watch the sunrise with yours peers was worth it all .

2010-06-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

I miss my girlfriend . I miss my cute boy . I miss my class . I miss going out . I miss those frequent msges . I miss taking photography . I miss my computer . I miss watching the movies . I miss my sec 3 camp . I miss those cheers . I miss those activities . I miss my group . I miss those fun . I miss those laughters . I miss the campfire . I miss my yogya trip . I miss those night we spend at night sitting outside the lift to do reflection during our yogya trip . I miss sitting in the bus laughing loudly during yogya trip . I miss looking at everyone sleeping in the bus and laugh at the way they look during the yogya trip . I miss feeling sick when the aeroplane was about to land and go off . I miss staring at the beautiful clouds . I miss the 'buah salak ' (its a fruit) . I miss those picture we take . I miss the time when we just went out to meet each other with our pyjamas on . I miss syafiqah my roommate . I miss gossiping with her till late night (adi said we were like karokae-ing(sp?) , maybe we were too loud -_-) . I miss watching indon movies with syafiqah , and go like wth with this guy and all . I miss being crazy . I miss the shopping spree . Well lets just say i miss everything esp the yogyakarta trip . Cause eventhough its only the 27 of us , i swear i never regret going cause i really really had tremendous of fun . Esp the part when all of our rooms were in lvl 6 , then the teachers were at lvl 2 and the tour guide were at lvl 4 . I miss totally we were like free . Hahaa . Running ard to each other room . The guys giving prankcall , which some of the girls thought it was for real . And what more , i guess im iratated the most . Haha , cause sadly , all the girls rooms were at the right side , and mine and syafiqah were at the left , and we were in between of all the boys , so its hell damn more iratating cause someone keep knocking our door and dissapear . like as if we cant see you running -_-' . Hahaa , to tell you the truth , me and syafiqah organize our room but it only lasted till the third day and everything went all over the place , but not bad , really . still neat . :) .

And now , i miss my girlfriends . Omg ! When are we meeting . :(((((( . Soon alright sooon . And its really a must . Cause i miss all the craziness and gossips . Nyehehe .

Fcuk . I havent study for my re-exam . Thank god ill be only taking chemistry . Pheww . And ill be taking the same exact paper . So i shall start doing my 2 project + 3 compo + reading of 3 eng book + doing a perfect slideshow for the yogya trip + doing a perfect video for the yogya trip + cleaning up my room + start revising + study for chem re-exam + more . So as you can see , ill be spending alot and alot of time with nad cause ill be gossip-ing with her , laughing with her , studying with her , doing both slideshow and video with her and alot more . Its quality time you know :) . Okay im done for now . I dont think i have updated about my yogya trip yet . I will okay ? soon . hehe . :D

Takecare .

2010-06-03T08:31:00.002+08:00

Hello .

Been a long time since i blog . Just got back from my Yogyakarta trip . A thumbs up i gotta say . But in those five days of course i do miss my family and girls alot . Its really great to see them yesterday at the airport . So ill talk about both my sec 3 camp and my yogya trip .

Sec 3 camp at Johor ; Ulu tiram .

At first i wasnt even interested in going . And i already plan not to go because i was sick . Flu , cough and all . But atlast at the very last minute , at 9pm , i decided to go , and i only pack my bag at 10pm . I decided to go to the camp because if i didnt go , most probably i would also be unable to go for my Yogya trip . As you can see , im not the type who likes camp and all . I started hating camp when i was 12 because of this particular camp which made me hate camps . But ohh well atlast i did go . So upon reaching school with zaattyyy , i saw the rest of the girls and we gather at the canteen/hall . Glad to know that atleast someone i knew was the same group as me . And it is syazana . So yes , after that they made some introduction . I mean the instructor of course . And then we bus-ed to Johor with our own class , and of course we are always crazy , me likey likey :) .

So after reaching at the campsite which looks like purely kampung , went to my group then went to my bunk and all . I hate the fact that actually my bunk is the most unknown place because its really at the side and we are facing the jungle . And theres like alot alot alot of ants and all . But thank god we got the most number of cubicles . Unlike the rest who only have afew cubicle while we got 8 , :)) . Okay so after that we had our lunch and after that we went for our first activity which is outdoor cooking . I learn alot of stuffs of course . Like which leaf we can make as a medicine and which one that can be eaten . Not only that but how to do traps and all . And the most exciting thing for everyone was the name of the wood . Hahahahaha , its a laugh out loud mann . So yes , after that we wash the stuffs and then have a rest and off to have our teabreak . After that we got the time to rest , and we had our dinner .

After the dinner of course is one of the most exciting activity . Which is the night walk . I hate the fact that we need to walk a very long way just to get to the abandon(sp?) temple for our waiting area . As you can see there are actually 20 groups . And in each group there'll be prolly around 16-17 people . So of course , thank god i wasnt in the last group , if not i gotta wait till idk what time to rest . Cause my group is number 11 , and at that time it was already 11pm++ , so i have no idea what time the last group finish their night walk . So lets talk about my night walk . At first instead of feeling scared and all , i was feeling very tired , maybe it was because of my medicine . But i gotta confess when it was my turn to walk , i do feel veryvery scared . So yes at first all the group gotta gather at the abondoned temple . It was freakin quiet and scary . But no offence but the most hilarious part was that , some of the students in my school really do not mind going to the jungle just to pee , O.o . Hahaha , not only 1 or 2 , but i think its like half of the sec 3 went to the jungle just to pee . I mean woah . Brave or what . I mean its like really dark and all cause its around 9-10pm .

So yes lets just continue , for once theres like total silence because the instructor do not even want to hear a single noise , not even a little . So yes , i gotta admit , those houses by the side look effing scary . Its all abandoned you see . And its kinda dark , i mean not like really dark till we cant see anything , our light source was only the moon/sky . So yes , thank god after waiting for a long time , my group was ready to go . I thought we could actually go already but still theres another waiting area . But instead of waiting inside the temple , we gotta wait at the abondoned houses , not in it , outside it . I still remember theres like 3-4 abondoned kampung houses . So the differences was that , this waiting area theres like only 3-4 groups at a time . And they told us that , they are also scared like us , and they did not even took any pictures because theres might be something unpleasant and all . At that moment i kinda start feeling scared . So yes , it was my turn and three other girls to wait beside the abondon kampung . The instrutor told us something which i have no idea weather its true or not . And told us to read this and that . Ignore anything that happen . That made me even more scared . So yes thank god girls can go in pair whereas boys gotta go alone . I walk with syazana . I think both of us were really scared cause we just look down , didnt say anything , and walk really fast , we only started laughing when something stupid happen to me .

Haha , gotta admit i was really stupid . Hahaa . So it goes like this . I was walking as per normal beside syazana , feeling very scared and all . And we were like briskwalking(sp?) , and the most stupid thing was that , i wasnt looking at the front , instead i look down , really down , all the way . And because of that i nearly fall in a hole which consists of a puddle of water with mud and all mud and its quite a deep hole , not really deep of course , but of course i didnt wanna get my shoes dirty so i tried to get away from it , and yes everything happen in a split second . And i did injured my ankle . Thank god it wasnt that bad . Atleast that incident cheered both syazana and myself . Hahaa , so yes , only syazana saw that incident , pheww . But quite alot of people knew about it . And the worst part was yet to come . Because it was quite a long journey , theres instructor sitting around at some places . Halfway thru the journey , the instructor stopped us , and told us to seperate means syazana gotta go first then myself . Atfirst i was scared because i was kinda limping due to the incident , i was thinking if anything were to happen to me , how to run . Hahaa , kay lameshit . But its true you know . So yes after a few metres syazana have walk , then it was my turn . So i walk as per normal , except that this time i was looking carefully weather is there any hole or not . I didnt dare to look to my side or front or even my back . When i was reaching the campsite , theres like footstep of someone walking , i got the urge to look behind actually , but i didnt want anything to happen so i just look down and walk . But then i was more scared when the sound got more closer . So yes because i was already reaching the campsite , only a few metres away , i look to the back , and i just saw one of my group members -_-" , haha kay lame . So after that debrief and all . I gotta go take my medicine and all . And because of my small injury at the ankle , i need to use this counter pain cream and the spray . So one of the instrutor help me do it . I thought of doing it myself but oh well , he said itll be better if he do it . But so kecoh , keep saying idk how to walk properly until can fall , -_-" . So after that its our goodnight sleep at the camp .

It wasnt pleasant really , wasnt at all . Its a small room , maybe two times the size of a normal bedroom . there were 5 double decker bed and 2 king size bed , which its pretty high kinda bed , really kampung bed . So yes , theres only two fan which is 10 times worser than the classroom fan . So yes , i was clever enough to actually take the bottom bed , grr -_- . Kay but it felt reallyreally cold at around 2am++ . And to make condition more worse , the room of my bunk cannot be closed . We tried closing it actually and just leave a small gap . And the worst thing was that two of our roomate have not entered yet , so we really had a hard time opening it . A really hard time . And because of that , we didnt even bother to close the door . Its like a slide door you see . Ohh well , thank god nothing from the jungle came into our room .

Wake up in the morning . Wasnt feeling good . Cough , flu , flam and all . Difficult to breathe . So took my medicine early in the morning . And were told to rest at the sickbay . But if i were to rest there alone , ill be dead bored . So i follow my group to their activities . But i didnt took part it in . One was flying fox and the other was SOC . The SOC looks like a mini army kinda thing . But i did help my group in the raft making . And we did ours different from the others . And guess what ? Ours work and came in as a piece and came out as a piece . Was proud of my group of cause . And the instructor told us that only our group manage to build a totally different one , and one that works . Awww , am really proud of my group . After that we had our lunch and the next activity which is the SOC . It only takes about 5-10 minutes for everyone to get over with . So we had alot of free times to plan for our campfire . We actually plan to sing and dance , but change of plan . So we did dikir barat instead . Gotta admit i really love the whole creation .

So after practising , we showered and spend more practising times with our group . And so the whole campfire started at around 8-9pm . It was really a thumbs up . Totally awesome . Actually before it started , i already lose my voice . Was pretty bad though . But whatever , i wanna have fun on my second night . So i did , really , totally fun . Seems like a party . But i feel stupid cause , im the only one , i repeat ONLY ONE among all the sec 3 students that was totally crazy . I shouted , i jump , i dance till my friend goes like , ' RELAX , RELAX IZYAN ' . Haha , well the instructur played the lady gaga songs , and all . So yes , you can say that we were like drunk . Hahaa , i didnt even care the fact that actually i lose my voice so i may sound weird and all , but whatever i sang my lungs out . Have fun and all . So yes gotta admit some of the peformance was really great , REALLY GREAT . And was really proud of my group cause they sound really loud , nice and clear . Aww , luv you peoples . So to end it short . I really love my group and section 3 . My group got the best awars among the sections three . But oh well , everyone is the best :D .

So yes , it wasnt a pleasent night though , pleasant for me but not for some . Okay so yes i shall skip . Ohh and yeah , i forgot weather this was the second or the third day , in the morning . Too much surprise , there was actually a cat at our toilet . But oh well , what to do . Its nature . Hahah , but they are very cute , i mean the cat . So yes , lets continue . My third day , was the most enjoyable day of all . The activity was called scavenger hunt , but it didnt seem like a scavenger hunt to me . I mean i thought that scavenger hunt was like searching for stuffs and all . But instead this scavenger hunt was more like hunting/exploring kinda thing . So atfirst we head to the woods . So upon reaching at this pretty big pipe , we gotta walk on it . It wasnt a short pipe instead a long one , a really long one . I was actually thinking what would i do if i fall . Because we can hurt ourselves , really badly hurt . So well thank god i made it at both two pipes . Really long distance pipe . I was actually giddy when i was half way . So i stop for awhile so i would not be giddy and would prevent from falling . So after that we head to the river . Gotta admit it was freakin cold , maybe because it was still in the morning . Thank god those two boys who was infront of me told me whenever theres a rock/log or whatever that might harm us . And one point i nearly trip cause its deep at one point , thank god there was someone infront that i could hold on to , so as to atleast not make a dramatic scene . A was amazed with the colourful dragonfly of course . There was one which was pink , and the other , orange , and the other green . And all three was really striking . I loike . But i hate the fact that my shoe was full of sand . Soo painful you know . Okay so skipskip . I really didnt have much energy left , so i was feeling weak , what more , we gotta climb here and there , than there like this slope . But oh well , it was worth going despited taking medicine in the morning which made me sleepy .

So yes , after that showered , then gather because after our later breakfast cum lunch , we are off to singapore . Its great to see my girls in the morning of course . Well , i didnt get the same room as them nor the same group . How sad right :( . Wouldnt wish to talk about what happen in the morning . Ohh and yes , now i really miss my whole group including my instructor . Oh well , then bused back to singapore . And after slacking for awhile in school just to meet cikgu to give my passport for my yogya trip , straight away went home with zaattyy . Reach home , clean up and sleep and my beautiful comfortable bed . Really appreciate what you have now , cause some are just not as lucky as us .

So ill continue with the post tommorow about my Yogya trip . :)

2010-05-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Sorry for the lack of update . Got back MYE results . Well i can say that im only 80% happy . I wasnt happy with my chemistry results because i fail it by like 3 marks . Shit man . But thank god physics brought up my science mark , so i pass it . And for physics i scored a 32/50 . Thank god (!!) . Was pretty satisfied with english , because eventhough the paper was freaking hard . I manage to pass the papers . But my composition is like story telling . Like what my friend say , i can make a storybook . Just cause i wrote around 1200++ words . I actually didnt notice i wrote that much actually . I was so engrossed with it . The topic i pick was Family , that is why i got much to write . I like my malay paper two but not paper 1 . I just got a pass for paper 1 , but a B4 for paper 2 , so paper 1 pull me down . Boo-hoo (!!) . I was freakin happy with maths . I thought i really fail the overall , but thank god , i scored a 40/60 for paper 1 BUT 16/41 for paper 1 . Yes i know thats bad , :( . But thank god i pass . So lastly will be Art and combine humanities . Am very satisfied with both Art and Combine H. . Scored distinction for Combine Humans , and a Grade 1 for Art . Effort of memorizing for hist and SS did paid off , and drawing and doing it with full concentration did paid off . A 75 for combine humanities and an 80 for Art . For the first time there'll be two A1 in my report card .

Well , as you can see , the most important thing was that i didnt want to fail any maths , Combine h or science paper . Because now there'll be retaking of exam paper if we fail any of the paper , that is why i was soo pissed with chem . And the worse thing was we gotta score a 95% . Like whatthehell , but thank god will be doing the same paper again . But if we scored a 95% and below , we'll meet the principle with our parents , if im not wrong . What a WOW ! -_- . Lets just hope there wont be a LONG queue . I dont know if it might happen or not but , imagine if we were suppose to take hist , geog or SS paper again , can we even score a 95% , maybe its possible but itll be freaking stress to memorise EVERY SINGLE THING . Maybe it'll be possible for the other subj . Thankthankthank god I'll be only taking chemistry . I'll be really studying during hols . Kay enough about exams .

Its been 100+ days since that day you left me , left us , left everyone . I kept recalling the whole incident . I was totally speechless . I didnt know what to say or what to do after the news that i received from my mum through the phone call at 9.15am . I receive alot of calls before that , but i couldnt pick it up because i was having lesson , and at that point of time , I knew someone will be leaving me forever . And it was true . I couldnt stop crying . When i was walking back home on that day , i keep thinking , and i know i havent done enough for you . Well it made me more sad when i could only see you the next day after you have left us . For once , i didnt talk the whole day even till the next day . All i did was shake or nod my head and cry . Kept thinking what i have done and what i have not done yet as a granddaughter . I know as your granddaughter , i havent done much . When you were still by my side , physically , i havent scored a distinction at all . Well , im proud to tell you that i did score two distinction this mid-year . I know you'll be proud cause you always wanted to see me achieving good grades for my exam . Actually I really didnt expect that it was you . It was so sudden . I miss your laughters , your scolding , your smile , the way you disturb me , your motivations , your everything . I lost everything just in a split second . I know you'll always be by my side , be it past , present or future . All i want you to know is that i love you no matter what . I thank god to have a grandmother who sacrifies alot of thing to make her husband , children , siblings , relatives , in-laws , grandchildren and friends happy in anyway . And no matter what , I will never give up to fulfill your wishes . I love you granny .

I wrote this because i miss my granny alot and because i had a dream i'll lose someone again . But i really hope it will not be true . I cant bear to lose anyone again . In total i have lose 4 relatives in 5 months , eventhough the other 3 wasnt close to me , they are still my far relative . I really dont wanna see sadness again in my family .

Ill end here . Good day .

2010-05-16T12:33:00.003+08:00

Spent my saturday slacking and sleeping till 12pm . Then , help mummy to wash the car while daddy go to work . Washing the car is a pretty hard work i can say . But after all it was fun , cause i spent my time washing the car , with mum , aunt and little cousins . Well the not so fun part was when little cousin splash water at me , and that made my shirt and shorts wet . And the worst part is that , we were washing it at aunts place cause we were also washing my grandfather car . So i went home soaked wet . Hahaa , sadly didnt took any photos . Atlast the car is neat and clean now . It was actually full of letters and all . And pretty dusty . Eventhough going to the car wash alot of times , the car still look pretty dusty . But i love the way it is now :) .

After that , went to malaysia with aunt's family and granfather . And of course my cute little boys were there too . So yes i bought alot of things for my trip to jogja . I seriously dont wanna wear jeans at jogja man , cause itll be like freaking hot , esp in the pretty hot weather at jogja . Thats what my maid told me , its gonna be hot there . Boo-hoo . Okay so yes , otw to johor , i snaps alot of pictures , i mean the scenery of course . Cause itll be very handy for my future art work . Haha , one of them is the one i posted together with this post . I like the clouds . I dont know why it turn preety dark in the picture , cause it was actually still ard 5-6 means , and there was still sunlight , and i did not edit it . But whatever , i still like the picture :)

I think i prefer malaysia's bubble tea . Cause seriously its much more nicer than the one i usually buy in Spore . I mean the ice they blend isnt as watery . And i really think that the grape champagne ice blend + aleo vera is freaking nice . Well , i think the ladies had much more fun then the guys , cause daddy alot bought a few cd's . Haha . So after that we had our late dinner at this place which i dont know where and whats the name . Sharas cried cause his brother , Shameer followed in my car , whereas he followed his mummy in another car . Hahaa , we gotta stop somewhere just to take him . Hahaa , sooo cuteee . He was crying non-stop . Okay , so yes , otw to the food place , daddy wasnt sure of the place . So his conversation with mummy was really funny cause after we reach the place , ( Its actually in malay , but ill put it in eng ) :)
Dad : Ahh , see i told you i know the place .
Mum : Yea right , you were like turning here , there , here , there .
Dad : Ya la , cause want to enter must turn one round .
Mum : Ya la ya la .
Dad : Ahh , see i tell you bukit indah , ahh correct laa the way .
( Sharas & Shameer was already half asleep )
Sister & Me & My maid laugh alot .
Mum : Ahh , ya laa , bukit indah . Ahh , okok .
Dad : Ahh there the shop there .
Then the carpark was pretty full so we gotta turn back , then we need to enter this mini road which is pretty dark .
Me : Wahlau , you sure or not want enter here ? O.o
Dad : Ya la , then where ?
Me : But like freaking scary , then what if like got something our way ? O.o
Dad : Alah , (with full confidence) later got something then we throw away .
Me : -_-"
Then after parking the car .
Grandfather : Eyy , why just now you never turn left ? That want shorter way you know .
Aunt : We headache look at where you go . Hahaha .
Dad : ( paiseyh aready ) Correct what , i see bukit indah that one .
Me : Ahh ya laa , you see bukit indah , we see bukit tak indah .
(Laughters)
Dad : Ahh ya la ya la .
Hahahaha , okay , i find it pretty funny cause daddy dont wanna admit he dont know the way . If you were there , you really will laugh out loud , cause it isnt funny , if youwere to read here .

Okay so , waiting for the food was like freaking late . So atlast homed around 10-11pm ++ . Today wake up at 10 am , and clean my wardrobe and some books in my study room , before mummy turn to her naggy days . Hahaa , i didnt exactly clean the wardrobe , my maid did , but atleast i told her , which one to throw and all . :)) . And of course , my maid did made me laugh because of some things . Hahaa . Its been already going to be 10 years shes working with my family . And shes a very nice lady . I really do love her . Shes like my sister now :)) . Okay so yes , now im spending my time on the computer . Maybe ill be going out later to find a small luggage for my trip next two weeks :)) . So i just realise that i have 10000 msges in my inbox -_- . Gotta start deleting .

Goodbye lovelys .

2010-05-13T15:19:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Thank god exams are over . I repeat OVER . Hahaa , art paper was okay just now . Only that i think i screwd up . I love Elsa's work . Freaking nice . So i guess 3 hours wasnt that long for me . Well , will work more on my time management . The last 15-20 minutes , most of us are cleaning up and all , so i chatted with nadra and ezaty because they are the closest to me . Art paper is the best among all the other papers because thats the only paper which we can talk after we end the paper . I mean , what can you cheat during art paper -_- . Hahaa .

So yes , spent my time with the girls after school . After spending tme at kfc , me , zaattyyy and nadra proceed to one of the void deck . Then because we wanna see something in the net , then we move to another void deck , but end up at my house because the plug is being a bitch , i mean the void deck's plug . So we did snaps photo and all . And surf the net and all . They ask me to watch the video , at stomp . And woah . Okay so yes skipskip . Now only left me and zaattyy . Hahaa , we laugh alot today . Esp the one at the bus stop . Hahaa , the bus left just like that , eventhough theres like people wanting to board the bus , Nad so paisey . Hahaa , me and zaattyy were like laughing non stop till i fell from the chair , the bus stop 'chair' i mean . Hahaa , we were opp you see , and nad is at the other side , so when we laugh , the people at the opp side were like looking at us . Paisey ahh sia -_- . Hahaha , but funnyyy .

Ohh yes , surprisingly , i did not touch my phone for the whole day . One thing was because i switch it off , for idkwhy . And the other reason was because my battery was flat . So i think the advantage is that if my phone is switch off , i wont be texting all day long , so my bill wont go up again . But the disadvantages is , when i switch it on(recently) , i recieve alot of text message , and not to say the miss call . Hahaa , im soo sorry dear loves . Not that i didnt wanna pick up or reply your msg , its just that my battery is totally flat . Hahaa .

Well , bye loves .

I miss your funny attitude . When can i see that again ? :(

2010-05-12T10:22:00.002+08:00

Hey .
Sorry for not updating tis blog daily . I am pretty happy now because exams are over , soon . But thank god i finish my memorising+writing papers . Tommorow will be art so im gonna practice painting after i finish blogging . Last monday , i had my maths paper 2 , i dont know weather i can score the paper or not because i think that its pretty hard . Last tuesday i had my chemistry . It wasnt as hard as expected . Serve me right for not studying wth full concentration cause i think if i did study , i have full confidence in the paper . But i think the paper was pretty okay for someone who never study . I think im soo gonna flunk science paper because of physics . Pathetic i tell you . So just now i had history paper . I dont know weather i can score or not . My time management suck big time . I took nearly an hour to finish two essay , fcuk man . I was suppose to spend like 40-45 minutes on the two essay . I was like freaking pissed when i couldnt remember something and start spitting vulgars all over , but of course i said that softly . SBQ was okay , but not that easy because sadly i dont really understand about the Stalin thing . But its okay , i have done the paper , i cannot turn back time . I just hope for the best now .

My art is kinda at a good speed now cause i finish idea , idea developement , explaration of composition , and half way through research and colour scheme . I shall and need to finish everything by today night . Im pretty confuse weather to use poster colour or acrylic paint . Or can i use both ? O.o .

Okay lets talk about yesterday . Went studying and drawing with the ladies yesterday at mac . I did finish my explaration of composition but i just can't get a peaceful environment to study . Hahaa , no offence but theres this group of girls which , idk , make pretty noises . Which is pretty irritating to me . Ohh wait , all these happen when theres only the two of us left . My dearest girlfriend and me . And yat and yanna join us for awhile . Then left the two of us again . And the pretty irritating thing was that this group of guys was like as if conquer-ing the space around us . We took 2 tables which is actually for 8 people , but theres only the two of us . So on the left side , theres like 4 empty seats , on the right side , there was like 6-8 seats , and at the front about 6 . Of all places , the group of guys actually squeeze and hang out around the left side , the 4 seats , and then some of them move to the right side when , the previous people sitting there left . Then because they are a pretty big group , they also took the front seat , which is like 4-6 seat . Both of us got pretty , you know , unsecure . Haha , yes i know lame , but like whatthehell , got other place like bigger , then they wanna seat there . Grr , then at first they were pretty noisy , but after some of them left , they were studying with full of concentration . Hahaa , so then homed at around 7++ .

Okay im done talking . Good day lovelys .

You made me remember of the beautiful past . The time when you made me laugh without fail everyday . Well , i miss that now . Those pretty irritating text messages . Those times when you were serious when we talk about certain stuffs . Those funny thing that you did that made me laugh . You wasnt the one who was actually irritating , but instead the one who know how to cheer someone up with the beautiful facts you said . I hope its happening now , but things change . But i hope you dont . :)

2010-05-08T12:35:00.003+08:00

Hello.
So well , there's a hot topic in my school lately . Well , i can say that looking at all the comments at facebook is pretty entertaining . But i have no comment about it . My friends are pretty mad with this girl cause of the attitude towards one of our classmates . Well , if you hadnt started it , no one will show you that they actually dislike you . So well i'll stop talking about it .

Next is thank god my left ear and throat have recovered but still my teeth has not recovered and the i dont know what thing is still at my throat which i find it pretty irritating . I hope it will dissapear very soon cause its bothering me .

Lastly i would like to wish Siti and Saiful a happy 21 monthsary . May both of you last long okay sweets , :) . I shall continue with my art cause i dont have any more time .

Bye sweets .

I need you back in my life dear boy .

2010-05-07T13:16:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Today i had my maths paper 1 and physics paper . Maths was pretty manageable but i shall not say easy because i have no idea weather im donna pass it or fail it . Ill hope for a pass of course . Physics , lets just say its manageable if i have studied cause the question are pretty straightforward BUT i am ready to get my results , which will be a fail . Because why ? Because i dont understand a single thing about physics . Boo-hoo . Even before the exams , some of my classmates was like , lets fail together :) . So i said YAY LETS FAIL ! :) . Haha , kay lame -_- . The other reason was because i just cant concentrate on the paper . Because i was very sleepy due to the medicine i just took before the paper . My eyes were like so freaking heavy and i just could not concentrate . Pfft .

So after that , met mdm Fadilah because of the Jogja trip thingy . And and and , i already know whos my room mate . Nyeheheh ! Fun or what :) . Okay so thank god in everyroom here will only be two person . THANK GOD ! . Haha , apa lagi , gossip ahh ! (: . Kay dah lame . My trip is sooooon ! Cant wait cant wait cant wait . Kay i seriously got to stop talking about this .

After my papers went long john with the girls and a guy . Hahaa , i was laughing out loud because of alot of things . Hahaa , sooo cutee mannn . Hahaha , kay stop .

So yesterday i went to the doctor to check whats wrong and guess what i gotta wait for ONE AND THE HALF HOUR just to get in . But there's like only 5 people infront of me . But i gotta say the doctor explanation is really good . So the pain was actually around the left head . At the left ear , left side of the throat , the left side of my teeth , and severals headaches . And because of all this , theres like something at the left side of the throat . And thank goodness i could actually feel the pain if not it actually something i dont wish i had . So yes , all this 'attack' me yesterday . When i was doing my SS paper with full concentration , suddenly theres like this freaking pain thing inside my ear which of course distracted me . I cannot explain how the pain was , but it was really painful . And because of the ear , i had headaches which is pretty irritating to me . I felt unwell so i decided to just go home instead of hanging around with the girls . I actually plan to study till late night after the visit from the doctor but atlast i ended up sleeping because the medicine is making me dizzy+sleepy .

Now i wanna continue with my art because im only left with 5 days to complete everything . Die man i tell you . Im planning to finish it before this sunday because i wanna try out the drawing so i could manage my time . The paper will take 3 hours but thats including of washing up , drying , painting , drawing and all . So i hope i can do my best this time round .

Okay goodbye now (:

I don't know why but i kinda adore that ang mor guy (: .

2010-05-06T12:17:00.002+08:00

Hello
Had my SS paper just now . Thank god i could still remember the points , if not ill be totally speechless . Let me just say that the paper wwas pretty easy if you study . So i guess ill pass for this paper . It was one and the half hour paper . I spent 45 minutes on two freaking essay . And seriously my handwriting was worser than a kid . You will never expect nice handwriting from me if i was suppose to write 2 essays in 45 minutes . I would never never never have nice handwriting on this kind of situation . Alot of cancelationwas made , and scribble here and there . Not only that but for my SBQ i even wrote the formula straight away after we were allowed to open our paper . Yes yes yes , that maybe lame but im not a girl who can memorize thing for very long , esp. when i just memorize it on the day itself , 15 minutes before the paper start . Okay enough about SS paper . It have pass anyway . So 3 papers down 6 papers left .

I feel like slapping myself now because why ? Because i just started drawing on my art . I didnt manage time properly for my art . And now im only left with 1 god damn week . And so my target for today will be revising maths , physics and finish atleast the idea and half of idea developement . AND THIS IS REALLY A MUST I TELL YOU . I dont think itll be easy for me to finish on time because im taking the topic ; curve . Yes that may be easy and all . But for this particular theme , i am putting in bali culture . I mean the dance move of course . As you can see , the bali dance has ALOT of curves . So it'll be better if i use this theme because i myself have experience the bali dance . Just the basics and all . But well , atleast i know something and it can help me better , right ? :) . And thank god tommorow will only be the paper one for maths , if not ill totally be speechless , because for paper 1 , my teacher have gave the class alot of hints , so i'll make sure ill revise more on physics because , gosh dammit i dont know a single thing , because why ? Because i always day dream in class during lesson . And im sure my class know why . *winkwink .

I think that ang mor guy pretty cute ^_^ .

2010-05-05T19:18:00.002+08:00

I dont know why i just can't stuff all the SS points in my head . And the paper is tommorow . HOW ? Mustmustmustmust memorise ! . BRAIN PLEASE FOR ONCE REMEMBER ALL THIS STUFFS :((((((( !

2010-05-05T16:28:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Today's paper was english . I dont know weather i can score on my compo or not . Because i wrote about 1000++ words . At first , i didnt expect i'll right that much . But i guess there's too much to say about it . Because the topic i choose was 'Family' . And basically , i own a wonderful family so there i think i talk about them too much . But i think ill screw my letter writing . Its about wanting my 'brother' to be a permanent resident is singapore and all . So lets just hope for the best when i get my results .

Tommorow will be SS paper . Ive studied some of the NI and Bonding . So basically ill end my paper early tommorow . And i dont think ill be studying with the girls tommorow because i dont think i can focus . Hehe .

I dont know why but my PM been really random lately . Hahaa , i kinda miss those cute animals you know . Hahaa , i still remember the funny event which took place in the zoo , near the cat country . HI-LA-RI-OUS i tell you ! Haha kay skipskip .

I think ill stop because suddenly im out of story O.o . Hahaha . Takecare sweethearts .

Girlfriends

2010-05-04T15:08:00.009+08:00

Hello .

I had my first paper today . And most of us took the express malay paper which will be abit harder . But i think it was ok . This year i think my malay totally drop . I have no more interest in this subject . I really had no time for my malay compo just now . And the reason is because im not confident in all the question and after spending about 15-20 min is this particular ques , i actually wrote like one and a half page , and i think it suck so i redo a new one . And im like only left with 35 min ++ . Bad in time management and mind map . But i hope ill get good marks for the letter writing . Spend about 50 min on that . So the 2nd paper was also the express paper . I feel like smacking myself for not reading through one of this paper when i was revising because the damn shit answer is on the paper . Grr , fcuk . Well , whats done is done .

I cant wait for my upcoming Jogja trip . Haha , me and ashikin already plan to bring luggage . Haha , well that may be a lame thing for you but you see , we need to plan ahead you know . No last minute thing . Im only looking forward for the fourth day because we'll be shopping on that day . Nyehehe . And can i wish there'll be cute guys there ? Hehe ^_^ . So its a five day trip . And Nad's birthday is on the fourth day . HEHEHE ! Well Nad just hope im not in the same room as you . Haha , kay fake . But i hate the fact that we only got two days of rest . Because ill be having the Sec 3 camp and the next two days ill be leaving to Jogja . So how like this . :(( . Then the worst is on the two day break , one of the day will be the Parent Teacher Conference . Wahh , damn man like this . Nvm , i still have fun .

Next will be about texting . I wont be texting alot this days . I dont want my bill to zoom up again and again and again . Well , you see i only got 360 free messages . Yes , THAT SUCKS BIG TIME . I seriously cant live without texting in a day . But i seriously gotta start maintaining my bill because I just realize that by texting im just wasting my dad's money . Dont you think soo ? Because by the end of the month . You'll just be so worried when the bill phone letter awaits you in the mailbox . Haha , i always get ever so scared when the first day of the month arrive . Because thats when the only singtel letter usually come , F. should be use to this already because its been a year since we text and call . Hahaha <3 . Well , you see my bill can reach up to $300-$200 JUST BECAUSE of texting . I can text up to 4000 msges per month . Hahaa , ive text up to 20 people in one month . But now im only texting F. , so my bill wouldnt be that high like before . Because last year and the first 2 months , my bill really made my dad super angry with me because he's the one paying it not me , so i do owe him an apology . But i dont know why my dad don't want to allow me to use prepaid or the student plan . I mean like , if i use prepaid i can maintain it . If i use student plan , i can msg all i want . Even up too thousands and thousands and thousands . Hahaa , maybe there's a reason why he wants me to use this 3g line or something . Hahah .

I feel like changing my current email . Because i feel like as if my msn is full with people which i dont remember who or which i dont even know who . So ill reconsider about that .

Friendship ? It aint getting any better . I think i rather be frank here because if im suppose to speak infront of my friends , i dont have the courage because ill end up being speechless . Hahaha , if you guys are reading this , still remember how much we had fun together , how much sufferings we have gone through all that . Still remember we were told to sit down at the square table , and speak to the person youre unhappy with and why all that . Haha , i still remember making the promise , i seriously find its cute . Hahaha . Okay change of mood to serious . I dont know whats the cause of this and all . All of you have been acting anonymous-ly infront of each other . All 8 of you ( excluding me ) seriously gotta confront each other if you have any unhappiness or anything going on . I cant bear to listen to anymore complains and all . And this can refer to anyone even people you dont expect that will complain to me about this . From my point of view , all this is misunderstanding , well you can say this and that , but to think about it back , dont you think that all of this are misunderstandings ? And i know after this you'll be like , you didnt go through it so you dont know how i feel and all , but girls come on , which friendship doesnt have any up and down ? Even my friendship with Nad go through up and down . But both of us know this is just some misunderstanding shit and people making up rumours and all . So yes , i did confront to her , and she did confront me . I told her everything and she told me everything , and see now we are already fine . Every door has a key to it . So that means every problem has a solution to it . Yes , i may be the youngest and all , but i have gone through some of this before . And i know how you guys feel . Jealousy and all . Girls , please dont assume something before finding out anything about it . This may be abit late for me to post but i cant stand it anymore . I dont want people to see our friendship's which is unstable now , and go like , ' see i told ya they will go their own ways ' . Well , to me thats bullshit . Dont you think so ? Well , for now , ignore what people say , and confront each other in a nice way . I know you girls will be back together . Luv you all <3

Having you in my life for the past one year was the greatest thing ever .
You never fail to make me smile everyday eventhough sometimes you irritate me .
You understand me well then other guys i use to know . You just seem different
than the other guys , in a good way of course . I hope you'll forgive my wrong
doing all this while . You taugh me how to love
myself and because of that i fell in love with you . And the more i argue with
you the more i love you .

2010-05-03T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Just to let you people know , dont get me wrong . I'm not attach to anyone . So dont ask me who im with all that , okay ? Because like i say , my first priority is not relationship . But its never wrong to like a person right ? So yes, :D.

Well i gotta say its surprisingly enough you actually said hi . Haha , i thought you were totally MIA . Well , im not trying to be sarcoustic or anything but its a 'what a wow' to me . Haha .

After reading Nanaa's blog , at one part she said , telling the truth just hurt someone . And i find its true . So im sorry if i lied to you or anything . Because seriously , the truth always change the mood . And i dont like being sad or all . But sometimes telling the truth is a good thing .

Goodnight .

Fcuk Attitude .

2010-05-03T14:06:00.003+08:00

Heyy there .
Sorry for not updating this blog . Firstly i seriously hate it if youre trying to seek revenge from me when i dont know what i have done to you . Seriously , get a life . If youre just playing with my feelings , then let me tell you , STOP THIS SHIT KIND OF ATTITUDE . You think its fun or what ? Going through shit again . And now what ? You're just spoiling my damn mood everyday . If youre just digging damn secret shit in my life , then how bout you stop all this shit ? Why the hell you wanna waste your damn time ? Not only youre wasting your damn time , but my damn time too . I should have listen to what my friend have said , texting you will just make me regret . And yes , im regretting this damn thing now . Like i say to everyone , after you read this , and you think its referring to you , then its you . So dont ask me which shit im referring to .

So back to my normal self . Been busy this days . Had 5 stations with some of the girls , because i miss it the other time due to dance . I thought i was gonna screw my incline pull up , but surprisingly , i got 17 , which is 5 points . Fuhh , semangat punya pasal . Not only this but my points for the other 4 stations was pretty satisfying . For sit and reach , eventhough i am short , i can reach till 38cm which is a gold for sit and reach . Well , i guess stretching during dance practises has advantages in it . I think i got gold for the rest , except for standing broad jump . Boo-hoo . A silver for that , :(( . But who cares , atleast i pass everything . :D

Saturday , when i wake up , i have all those shitty muscle , esp at the shoulders area . All thanks to incline pull up -_- . So wake up early in the morning then followed to my mum's friend brothers wedding because ill be helping out . Well , its pretty fun i can say . So , altogether off nearly 800 pictures . Idk when i wanna upload them , so just wait :D .

On the sunday , eventhough i was tired , i drag myself to orchard just to have an outing with my cousins and aunts . Well , my time wasnt wasted . Went to ion swensens . I really love the ice cream etcetc buffent . I tried alot of ice cream . I love the strawberry fountain . After spending like 2 hours , went for a mini shopping . So from ion to wisma atrium to taka then to paragon . Went to taka just to find my art stuff for my upcoming exam . I spend a total of $70 just in the art friend just to buy a all the diff sizes of pencil set , poster colour , acrylic paint etcetcetc . Lets just hope the acrylic paint will be better then the one i bought at popular . This time i bought the dailer rowley (sp?) something . Haha , random sungguh . Then at paragon , we just spend our time at coffee bean talking about some girls talk . Well , you see its a girls outing . So its a girls talk :D .

Monday , i spent time with the girls . Sadly Yanna and Ashikin couldnt make it , soo ;((((((((( . But nvm , im still having fun with the girls now . At library surfing the net instead of studying . Hahahha . :D

I guess ill be deleting some of the links because i wanna make this blog look totally plain . So dont get me wrong if i delete some of you alright ? Ill put it up soon , maybe by the end of the month or something , i'll only put my precious one for the mean time . Pretty please dont think you did something wrong to me or something alright . Hahaa , exam's around the corner . Gotta really start doing art . I think im behind time . Ohh well , i start some studying though . My time was spent pretty well just now . With the girls just now . And one guy which i dont even know . Haha . Well , i think im gonna prepare myself for tommorow's exam .

Well , i gotta confess something to someone . I hate you for making me like you again . Hahaa , im not serious about the hating part , but im serious in the liking part . No matter how much you irritate me or make me angry , in the end youll still make me smile . Youre unlike the rest i get to know with . You understand me more . Eventhough i just got to know you for the past one year , i know you are not the other guys who just break's someone heart when you make some stupid mistake , which everyone make .(Not that im referring to any guys i know ) . But something weird about you is that , no matter how hard i wanna make you jealous , you just wouldnt show to me that youre jealous , but i know that you are , and dont deny it :D . I mean , when i tell you i like this someone and all , youll just entertain me . Dude , sometimes you gotta show that youre jealous . Hahah , ok la tu , im weird , youre also weird . Haha . :D . So ill end it with , I love you F.

Bye .

2010-04-27T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hello .
Today school was pretty boring . My place like very quiet gitu . Ohh and thanks ahh Raziff & Sai ! , they say ytd i didnt came school , atlast they can study , -_-". Hahahaa ! But well like i say , my today was boring because i didnt have any mood to talk , the only person beside me was Kai seng . And sadly he didnt entertain me with his songs today because he was sleeping . Sai , Raziff and Qai was infront of me so its pretty hard to talk . Haha , its okay .

So yes , mothers day is coming soon right ? Well sadly for this year , granny wont be with us having dinner like we use too , :'( . Its been 3 months since that day . I dont wish to recall it but it keep coming on my mind :( .

Soo tonight i got to go out . Wah thanks ahh , im tired already you know ! :((( . Nvm , a promise is a promise . Zawir planning for a night study tommorow , i wanna go but i dont wanna go . Because now , first priority will be art . So you dont expect me bringing all my art stuff over to Mac right ? Hahaa , so let me think about it first okay . I only did a tiny bit of revision . I seriously gotta start revising .

Just now we went to Jurong to support the Basketball guys . Well firstly congratulations guys , you did made the school proud again . And on the other hand , i hate that im having sore throat now . I lose my voise just now . But thank god my voice back to normal , only its hard for me to swallow . Sad or what . But nvm , my cheer didnt go to waste :)) .

And now , i miss F.

Kay im done . Bye .

2010-04-26T21:03:00.007+08:00

Hello .
Second post for the day . Well im bored .

And the picture above is saying that i admire someone . Well , dont ask me why i admire this someone okay ? To me he's a great guy who made me smile all day long . Well , its never wrong to admire right ? My feelings will change soon , maybe . Day dreaming about you is my habit lately . Texting you is a must . So if i miss you big time , how F. ? Ohh and not to forget , he know how to make me happy with the way he treat me . <3 you ass .

And to this girl , klau perangai kau dah mcm bitch , apa orang boleh buat kan . Sayang , people are just hating you more . Please , pretty please dont show your decent face yang macam sial , buat i muntah ajer . Kau buat kawan aku nyerh hidup makin famous gitu . Nak copycopy ni , asal ekh ? And kau ckp kau tk suka kcau hidup orang la ni la tu la . Beyh skrang apa girl ? Buat darah up je . Please ahh , stop it ekh nak kacau hidup orang . Kau pikir kau mana peyh decent ni skrang ? Kau nak attract guys , go ahead tapi please ahh flirt tk mo melebih ahh . Tak ada orang nak stop kau nak gy flirt semua . Tapi tgk tempat ahh babe . So go on with your 'lovely life' yang mcm sial okay . You jangan libatkan atau copy kawan i sudah okay bitch ? Sayang you .

Well , ini physics teacher buat darah i up sahaja . Well , whats with the retest , surely there's still alot of failures . Klau nak kasi retest , BILANG CLEAR-CLEAR boleh tak ? So what if tmrw the test ? FAIL AHH FAIL .

Bye .
Sorry for the unlovely post .

2010-04-26T11:57:00.003+08:00

Hello .
See the picture above . Arent you surprise ?! The goat is actually smiling when i took the photo . Aww how cute , this means the goat is very photogenic .

Hahaa , so yes im not in school today . Please dont get me wrong . I wasnt lazy , maybe only about 30% lazy because i have not done with my homework yet . But on the other hand , i wasnt feeling well . I didnt have my beauty sleep last night comfortably . So im still suffering from the pain today . Very sad right . I wanted to go to school so i can meet my best girls , and irritate those people who seat around me . Hehehe . And to those people , guess what ?! I saw a hot+cute ang mor on saturday . Haha , and i bet you that theyll get irriatate by me real soon . Haha . But sometimes they are freaking annoying -_- , haha .

Exams are coming soon . Ohh well , please wish me all the best okay ? I am soo gonna start studying . Ohh well , all the best to all of you too okay :D . Ohh and i wont be around from the 24-26 may because im haveing my sec 3 camp . I hope itll be fun . And i willalso be away on the 29may-2june because im having a school trip to Jogjakarta . And im looking forward to it ^_^ . Nyehehe . And can i wish that , therell be hot guys there ? Hahha . Kay lame shit izyan -_- .

One more thing , I miss the dancers . Can i have a dance practice soon ? I miss you babes to the max ! I can die without having a dance practice soooooon .

Im done here , good day .

2010-04-25T16:38:00.002+08:00

Hello .

So you see the picture above , its from yesterdays picture . Pictures from my relatives engagement . While waiting i took Ryan picture . Sorry its kinda blur , i cant possibly on a flash when the baby is asleep and i was in a rush that time .

Dont you agree with me ? He really look like an ang mor right . We are second cousins . Meaning a little further kinda cousin then the first cousin . Ohh well , if you dont understand , then just act as if you do . But im pretty close with all my 'second' cousins , only with mum's sides because dad sides is at malacca . Haha . I dont know why but seriously i realy find that Ryan look like an ang mor . His older brother which is about 4-5 years old is pretty playful + rough . And he kinda look like ang mor-ish , but not really ang mr like his lil brother . Both veryvery fair . Haha .

Ohh well , so yeah basically ytd night , i didnt have a good sleep . All thanks to my ohh soo freaking pain tummy . It was totally terrible kinda of pain , and i swear you wouldnt wanna be in my state . So that explain why im not in a good mood today . So im sorry if i say anything wrong okay ? I tend to argue eventhough its just a little thing . Well , you gotta be understanding , this thing really hurt badly , what do you expect right ? .

So because of this , i didnt have any mood to do anything . I took my medicine and take a short nap . Ohh well atleast some people did make me smile by texting me , eventhough it was just a short while :)) . Ohh and not to forget , my parents also made me laugh , with their childish attitude . Haha , semangat main game . :)) Okay im done .

Good day .

2010-04-24T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hello sweethearts .

As you see the picture above , the first picture was my zoo trip with my sister . And the second picture was my relatives engagement . So yeah , i spent my whole day not staying at home . I spent a total of 6-7 hours in the Zoo . Ard 9am to 4pm . My agenda was basically doing some research for my upcoming mid year art exam . Well , i guess zoo is where i get inspired . Haha , okay so yes . My sister never fail to make me laugh .

So upon reaching there quite early , we walk as slow as we can and snap as many photographs at one place . And yes i got to hold the camera for the whole day , thanks to my sister . Well atleast most of the photographs is prolly my sister's face . Basically i totally fell in love with the otters . They are so freaking cute . So yes after that was tiger trek , while walking on the way to the animal trek , out of a sudden , a kinda medium size lizard appear infront of us and some other people . So what else can i do right ? Snapsnap .

Because we went in the morning , i think the animals are still sleepy , so basically they just sit , lie down like very attentive , well behave children . how cute . Haha , there are quite a number of ang mor family . But sadly most of them are old or too young , :( . Haha okay skipskip .

We spent time at Kidzworld after that . Ate breakfast around 11-12 . So yes , the counter there is really , pfft -_- . But nevermind about that . While walking to the toilet , i saw a hot+cute guy ! . HEHE . Well its not wrong to admire right ? ;) . So yes , went to the maze , playground and so on . After that went to the fragile forest . And i went inside alone , due to some reason . So , i think the bats are kinda cute . But sadly there werent much butterflies , :(( .

Ohh and one hilarious event happened . Haha , well maybe its shock+sad for them but i kinda find it funny . So the story goes like this . While walking towards the tropical foods or whatever it is , theres this one indian family infront of us . So we just went infront of them and head to the cat country . I was so shock when there's a sudden of scream from that family/group . Everyone around that area all look at the same direction , even people who is at the cat country side . And out of a sudden , theres two old men , which is also from the same family , from the cat country place rushing towards the other family members .

The unexpected part was , one of the man was wearing the ' white kain' thingy , and he folded the thing up , and he jump across the mini slope , instead of walking down the mini stairs . I was smiling/shock . Then the other one was rushing while bringing the stroller as well , And he just left the stroller in the middle , and the stroller fell down , and a kind ang mor lady help them pick it up . My sister was like , 'eyy take picture take picture ' , i was like -_-' . Haha , but i couldnt help it when they ALL shouted , including the two old men . Haha , well im not the only one laughing alright . Everybody was like smiling laughing because i just think , a lizard just came out thats why they scream . Hahaa . Ohh well , you should have seen it , its more hilarious when you see it .

So yes bus-ed home with sister , and was just about to rest when my mum say that I MUST FOLLOW to my relatives engagement . I was like wth (!!!) . Grrrr , somemore my thing just started . And moodswings all over me just now . Ohh well , but on the other hand , it isnt nice if i wasnt there , its like im their relative right ? . So yes , we are kinda late but whatever .

I waited with the rest at the void deck , snapsnapsnap pictures . And blablabla , and i gotta know there's like 40 presents they exchange , i was like what (!!) ? Haha , okay , woah . So yes , head back to the guy's home which is my relative and have some quick bite and start taking some random shots , as my sister didnt wanna snap any photos . About an hour there , then we left .

So i guess im done here . Well , but im not done with facebook just yet . Im still oweing people to upload the photos such as ,
Art sculpture walk : 500++
UFDC : 200++
Class trip : 500++
Zoo with sister : 600++
Kampung with cousins : 800++
Dinner with family : 50-100++
Dinner with family two : 50-100++
Carousel (mummy's bday) : 200++
Carousel ( During tea time?) 50-100++
Arab street : 100++
Relative engagement : 400++
Jogathon ( Yanna's camera ) : 300++
Jogathon ( Mine & Sis ) : 300++
March holiday KL trip : 500++

Seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , how many pictures i owe . DIE ! . Hahaa . A total of around 4700 !!!! . Kay im sleepy .

Goodnight sweethearts .

Ohh well , its cancel again tonight , :(( .

2010-04-23T19:21:00.002+08:00

Hello Sweethearts .
Today was a very heaty day . Ohh yes , before that , see that little guy on top ? Thats my cousin , and his name is Shamsharastani Hadi . He got an older brother , which is my little cousin with the name , Shameer Amirul Hadi . Both of them are veryvery cute but sadly , very the irritating . Hahaa , and yes it is very random of me to say about them . Haha , kay let me talk about today . Basically today we had jogathon . I went to the MRT station with my oh so messy hair , haha , i woke up like 5am (!!) , so i had like 1 hour++ to get ready , watch tv and all . I totally forgotten i actually need to meet them by 6.35am , and i went out of my house on that exact time , -_- . So i was late you see . Haha , now i know how it feels like for people to wake up darn early to go to school , I saw alot of people from various school , ohh andand , i saw one of the UTG guy , the ang mor , the junior one . Okay this is random . And and not to forget i think that Unity is the most very noisy school in the train . Everyone else was like stoning but we were all laughing etcetc , haha noise pollution ? Haha . Okay so yes , it wasnt really a pleasant day though . I was atually hoping for it to rain , yes so i could walk in the rain . So yes , our jogathon was at chinese garden though . While walking there , i was crapping with iraa , talking about sec 1 , and i still remember , if anything bad happen , hide in the bushes . Haha , cute right all of ur convo . I really miss them . I really miss us . I really miss last time . :( , okay so , suring the jogathon , sec 1 went first then sec 2 . Haha then the sec 3 , i swear i took my own time walking with my dearest friend . Nak semangat buat ape kan ? Hahah , both of us still can take jump shot in the middle of the run , haha making joke and all . covering the way . Haha , i enjoy the view and the wind . So yes , i didnt even sweat at all , because i only like ran half way , then walk the other half way . Atleast i got to talk to my bestg the whole way . Hahaa , Sayang kau <3 . Haha , after the whole thing had ended , they have the prize thingy . Serious , no offence but it took like a looooooooooonnnng time to end . -_- , haha and at that point of time , i was holding Yanna's camera . And while i was tooking some shoots of the prize presentation . A cameraman was standing infront of me , taking picture of me taking people's picture , haha get it ? get it ? Kay lame , so yeah , after that change , then straight to yew tee , ljs and home . I was soooooooooooooo tired due to the heat , so i slept like another 4 hours in the afternoon :D , and to someone , so sorry i didnt reply your text and i didnt pick up your call , D: . Well i miss my chance on taking otp just now , D: , tsk . nvm .
Bye sweethearts .

2010-04-21T18:20:00.002+08:00

Hello sweethearts .
Firstly im not in the mood . Things are just like so fucked up . Ohh well , no one knows what im talking about , because i guess there's too many thing which made my mood like fuck today . Soo yeah lets skip about the fuck stuff . Secondly , i miss dancing , golfing & swimming . Its been a long time since a golf and swim , not really long actually , but still i miss it . I didnt dance for a few days , but i feel like fuck . I gotta dance so i can throw out all my fuck mood , and yes , dancing is a way i release my stress/anger . Thirdly , can i say that i seriously suck big time in Oral ?! Its like waddafcuk ? , for english , it was quite ok , but i went speechless at time , and i tend to laugh , for NO REASON ?! Tell me about it -_- , so for malay , LIKE WADDAFCUK ?! I totally screw the whole thing up , the tester even told me that i read with the english slang . I was like whatthehelllllll ? Then i'm on the urge of spitting out english words instead of malay . And the tester was like smiling , when i went totally speechless ?! , okayy greattttttt . I totally forget some of the word , i mean like , i was nervous , what do you expect right ?! Fourthly , I hate my maths result , i swear i hate it alot , can i say that again , i hate it alotalotalot . Ohh well , gotta buck up . So yes , well today school hours wasnt that boring . As usual Kai Seng entertain me with his 'songs' , saiful entertain me with slapping my face -_-' , Hidayat entertain me with slapping my back -_-' , Raziff entertain me with the step mat rep , Qaishril entertain me with the very quiet attitude which i find cute/funny . This are the one who always entertain me because they are all the one sitting around me , hidayat sitting on my left , kai seng on my right , saiful in front of me , saiful's right is raziff , and saiful left is qaishril . Itll be much more fun if i seat closer with my girls :( . Ohh well , atleast the guys entertain me with their 'foolness' . Well let me confess something . I gotta say , i love three-two to the very max . All bonded together . Different attitude which made everyone smile/laugh/do not feel left out . Ohh well , atleast we tak step matured , ^_^ . And that doesnt mean im referring to any of the class in the school , ^_^ . Okay i think i have talk enough .
Good day sweethearts .

2010-04-20T19:43:00.002+08:00

Hello sweethearts .
The picture above is this cute cat , did i tell you , I love cats , I love sealions , I love otter , I love panda , I love cheetah , I love jaguar , I love tiger , I love lion , I love polar bear , I love kangaroo , I love horse , I love monkey and lastly i love all animals . So you can say that im an animal lover . So yes , i wanna go to the zoo soon . For photography and to see my lovely animals . ^_^
Next will be about school . School ? Ohh well , friendship are going haywire . But i know that my girls are always there for one another . I <3 you girls . Secondly , i miss my dearest kambing and pantat ! Dont get me wrong , they are my best girls not guys . Haha . Its been a long time since i talk crap with them . I miss those time ! I miss our long talk . I miss complaining to them about stuffs . Lets just say i miss them badly , and goodluck for .
Next is my trip to Jogjakarta with my lovely schoolmates . Well , of course im gonna miss my beautiful soul in singapore but i think ill have tremendous of fun with them later for five days . I cant wait for my beautiful trip ! Hehe .
Next , im in love with photography now , dont ask me why . Ytd picture and today is the picture i took during my one day stay at my kampung . Well , i got 800++ photos , so i wont post all though :D .
Lastly , i wanna start doing art , so good day lovelys :D .

Photography

2010-04-19T19:05:00.002+08:00

Hello Loves .
Well i guess i havent be updating for idontknow how many weeks or plusplus . Since im very bored right now . Let me update a bit .
Firstly , i guess that things are not the same . Attitude changing and all . Why are you just so jealous ? I mean , seriously . No one is ever so interested in him . There are so much better guys out there , seriously . Well , i have no comment on this . I'll just take that , you think his hot , but i think he's just an average , ^_^ .
Secondly , test results are all coming back . Dissapointment i can say . But still satisfying . I just love my history results . Not to tell the whole world i got good results , but im just saying that maybe im more serious in my work than i use to be last time . Eventhough an average for chem , i think that i did pretty well , because i didnt study nor did i paid any attention . Ohh well , i did pay attention , of course . Physics ? Well , tell me about it . Two words . NO HOPE . Haha , even if you think it is an easy subj or whatsoever , lets just say , to me its pretty boring , and my teacher ? ohh well , i have no comment . History and SS are the best . I did study all out for this subj . Haha , because i got interest in it . But i wish i could retake my first test , just to bring the marks up higher , from a 65 to a 75 . Ohh well , overall , 65 was my lowest score . Boohoo . Soo malay , ohh well im deproving . And english , after changing of teachers , its like automatically , i change from hyper to sleepy . Hahaha . Kay done about this .
Thirdly , i got a camera . So i spend my time taking pictures at malaysia , my kampung . And i took like 700-800 photos ? Haha , well tell me about it . Its just so ever fun . :D .
Fourthly , I think my bill is gonna go up , as ive been like texting 5-6 ppl in two weeks ? Ohh well im just texting one starting from now :D .
Fifthly , im tired already so good day love ;D

2010-04-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

Thinking about you all day long .

Waiting for your text seems forever .

I hope it wont take long

But I dont mind waiting forever .

You should give respect the way you want your respect to be .

Friendship isn't about who you've known the longest, it's who came & never left.

You yourself should have some originality , cause seriously you are so fake .

Freedom Writer a recommended movie . Its really a good movie for teenagers . Atleast after watching this movie , i feel really thankful to have a great family and friends . Some parts might be abit emotional , but you can learn alot of things from it . Atleast it will make you realise .

And dear readers . I guess ill be deleting my blog soon , or i will just update it once in a while cause i dont have any privacy having a blog . I dont think privating it will be a good idea , cause its just so troublesome and i wont update it frequently though .

So yes , sorry .

xoxo.

2010-03-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

Your words can kill someone's feeling .

Your words can make people hate you .

Your words can make someone to kill your feelings back .

Even if you think your words are funny ,

think twice

Youll never know what will happen next .

xoxo,

Izyan N.

Flashing cameras

2010-03-16T08:07:00.002+08:00

Wont be updating due to busy schedule and V. lazy . Sorry loves .
Goodbye , takecare .

2010-03-07T13:14:00.003+08:00

Hello there
To sharmin , sharena , atiqah , helena : sorry for not relinking/linking you guys . Soon alright .
To Lyyanna : Miss youuuuuuuuuu toooooooooooooo ! (:
So my post wont be that long today because im lazy , (: . So yeah , schools been pretty busy this days . Thank god , i have friends wo cheer me up when im down . Something happen during dance , dont wish to elaborate it . So yeah , had a great laugh with yanna , ashikin , yat , sai , zane and nash on friday . We were suppose to go out of schl just to buy bubble tea , but in the end , we went ALOT of places , till nash went like , I thought we are going back schl aft this -_- , haha because i keep on saying lets go here , eyy go here uhh aft this , etcetcetc . Okey , lol . After reaching schl , i irritate yat and zane by speaking like a philipine(sp?) Lol , i know thats lame , but i find it annoying to , imaging speaking that language for a long time , fuhh . Okey so yeah , went fishing with family , and today i feel like relaxing , so yeah
Bye (:

2010-02-27T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hello loves

So yeah , wanted to go out with someone but no one is free as in my school friends , because i wanna study . :( , but someone ask me to watch percy jackson with him , but haha sorry dude ;) , you know why righttt (: . Ohh yeah , so ive been having muscle cramps lately , and its soo killing me . Ive nothing to post actually i just feel like blogging , -_- , so yeah , ive been studying late ( what a wow ) , haha , but seriously , i wanna pass my test , and im serious about this , okey so yeah (: .

Ohh someone send me this ' You , what if i die ? '

-_- , i have no idea what to reply , but anywae you know who you are , you are the best , and the sweetest (:

Im gonna end here ,

Good day loves .

I love straw hearts .

2010-02-24T20:11:00.003+08:00

Hello (L)
Life been pretty great . Esp. with both of my fav. girls :D . Ohh and not to forget the rest too . I think ive been pretty irritating/annoying/cruel to yat , sai and zane . Nyahahaha ! But its the fact that ang mor are so cute . Ohh and guys with fair skin . Oh and guys who are nurse and doctors and dancers are just tooooo cuteee and kinda gentlemen . Nyahahaha , Its true isnt itttt :D Hahaha , i talk to them for like one hour non stop about the topic , and they go like , izyan you got take ur medicine or not , izyan are you sick . The still can touch my forehead to see if im sick somemore -_- . Hahaha but overall its sooo funnn having a 'debate' with them , cause you know at last who win ? Nyahahaha , you guess ? :D Kay so yeah recently zane been pretty entertaining . Nyahaha , its true you knowww . But he can be pretty irritating though -_- , nyahahaha . But overall FUN . Kay so yeah , im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo craving for white choco . And i just bought it , but its not totally the white one because the white one is like totally no stock anymore , FREAKKKKK MANNNN ! -_- . Kay nvm chill , atleast the top part is white choco . Kay skip about that . I seriously love my sec 3 class . Nyahaha , its true okeyy ! (: . And dancing with them just now is a thumbs up ! , ohhh and dikir barat is soooo funnnn , like seriously siaa . Im not really ready for tmrw's dance , :( . Nvm i know im gonna have ALOT of FUN , :D . So yeah , ill end here readers .
Good Day people (:

2010-02-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

Hello lovelys
Wont be updating blog due to busy schedule alright . Will update all your links and my blog as soon as possible alright ?
Bye lovelys

The besttttttt

2010-02-12T16:13:00.002+08:00

Hello there .
I feel like blogging now , when i still have the time to blog . Because currently i have no time to blog due to school stuffs . So yeah , this few days is pretty fun to me . People after people is getting me entertain by texting me . Out of a sudden , fariz texted me . Hahaha , LOL uhh you . ^_^ . Okey soo yeah , on the wed was kinda rushing for me after school , due to some stuff -_- . Pfftt . But i get to see ______ , hahaha sooooo cuteeeeeeeeeee ! ^_^ Seriouslyyyyyyyyyy mannnnnn . Soo going crazy over _____ . Okey stop it izyan -_- . Ohh yeah on the wed , during school hours , first five period WAS BORING . But still i was paying attention , i guess ^_^ . Okey so yeah , I loveeee historyy and arttt ! . Lets just talk about art . Ohh yeah on wednesday i help iraa for awhile with her art . I just love to mix the cement , ^_^ . KAYYY LAMEEEE ! -_- . But just soo hate the part when idk how my glove can tear at the tip of my finger and the cement went inside the glove , and my hand looooook sooooooooo dryy . Freaking irritating . -_- . Okey so after school , zoom to _______ with the both of them . Then blablabla , seriously mann , otw home . Oneay cant just stop making the rest of us laugh and all because of the Banglas . Hahaha , then kept staring up and down mann , and oneay was irritated at it , sooo youuu knoww , hahahah ^_^ , okeyy so yeah . After that went to have my ohh soo freaking lateee breakfast at 6pm , -_- . Howw greatt right ? I should have fast on that day siaa -_- , And while waiting for the food to come , got a phone call from amalina , she told me about _____ . Its like wth siaa ? What i do wrong to you sia ? Someone said hello to you , and you ignored her , and now you say that im _____ . Are you seriously trying to make me and my bestf fight ? Know what , instead of fighting with her , she told me everything . What a wow sia . Didnt know you could go that far . Gahh so nvm , thats all for my wednesday . On my thursday , it was sucha torturing/tiring training , but overall i had lots of funn . So after dance training , had a ______________________ . Guess whats that kay ^_^ . Hahaha . so end of that day . Ohh and today ? I find that pe is kinda tiring due to ytd training , but overall its fun playing street soccer . ^_^ . Blablabla , kinda hate malay now , idkwhy . Art was as usual the best ^_^ . Then had the CNY celebration . Its quite entertaining , some parts . Okey im done for now . And now im spending time with , pravina , oneay and firdiana . ^_^ . Its just soo fun being around them , nyeheheh . ^_^ . Okey im done for now , very lazy to type more \
Byeee ^_^

Yusryyyyyyyyy !

2010-02-09T19:00:00.003+08:00

Hey there !
Today basically i did nothing much . So yeah , english period i spent my time playing some hangman things with , yanna , yat , sai , zane , raziff and qaishril . Shoa wei was being as extra though . Hahah rightright ? LOL . kay sorry . So yeah maths lesson was very (B) . I hope you know what i mean -_- . So yes , ohh yeahh . soo sorry zane , for the hand thingy . Hehh , whoops . (Serve you rights ! ^_^ ) Disturb somemore laa , see what you get , nice right your hand ! (: . But hahaha , afterall im very sorry kay for the fingernails marks ^_^ . And today i think zane always get scolded by me , but in the end his the one who sulk -_- . Gahh . Hahaha . Kay whatever . So yeah , weee ! Someone or should i say some people would treat me B & J ice cream if i win this something . Nyehehe , Yat and Sai uhh , keep your words uhhh ! ^_^ . Okey so yeah during recess , normal place but with ili and pravina . Hahhaa , Kay then physics lesson was super boring , i mean he was being very lame , ^_^ . But overall okey laa . Then malay , i just hope i pass my peribahasa test eventhough some of them i just put anyhow , i can laugh looking at my answers , fyi -_- . And i just hope the debate would be finee , first time okeyyy , must start digging out some information already . Gahhh . So yeah . went to sit with the girls after school , then SAC . Miraclely i read my book for a few mins . Quite goood kayy . ^_^ . Then waited for the other two girls , and learn some new steps , and i just hope this thing would be successful . ^_^ . Ohh i think we are just soo addicted to crumping -_- . Hahaha seriously , FUNN YOU KNOWWWWWW ! . Why am i soo excited now ? Idontknowwhy sia . Someone's bdae next week uhhhh , and he expect me to _______ for him . Let me see first uhh . ^_^ . So yeah nothing much for today , i spent most of my time texting Yusry . Hahaha , he keep bugging me to tell him something . And if youre reading this , NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ! (: . Kay im done . I feel soo happy today , idkwhy ^_^ .
Bye ^_^

Oneay !

2010-02-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Hello , ^^
So i had a kinda long talk with oneay today . But pravina miss it again :( , ohh well . Friday is a must okey girls ? Its a MUST i tell you . Hahaha . Okey so yes , today went pretty well i guess . Except for morning . Oh well , what can i say , history does repeat itself . Ohh well , my friends know how i feel . Right ? Okey after that everything was fine , ohh yes , i was selected to go to yogyakarta ! FUNNN OR WHATTT ! okey stop it -_- , thank god parents are letting me go for the feild trip eventhough they will need to pay a large amount of sum as my edusave money is like , pfftt -_- , I (L) my parents ! ^^ . If im not wrong the people who are chosen are , Me , nadra , syazana , ashikin , unni , hidayat , syaiful and qaishril . I hope i dont miss anyone . Ohh i wish everybody could goo , soo itll be soo much funn ! ^^ . Okey soo yeah . Went to SAC for awhile . Soo irritated with Zawir ! Damn laa you , you and your MUS ! Nothing to do with him anymore kayyyyy . So yes continue . Homed around 8 like that . So thanks to oneay for making my day a very beautiful day . Eventhough i was pretty ______ . What to do right . And soo looking forward to tommorow ! Yay-ness ! (:
Bye , ^^ .

Misery

2010-02-07T13:09:00.003+08:00

Hey there .
I have nothing to do now so i decided i should blog . Actually i got tons of homework to do , but i just dont have the mood to do though . Ive been thinking lately about ______ . Idontknow weather i should give up or stay with it . I gotta think about it . Its like , i dont know how to say it . But things just seem different . I just find that its not fair to me . Why do the one thats not in the wrong make the first move ? Im not only referring to this thing which just happen to me but also the past . Things been pretty unfair this day , and its true . For my life i mean . And to ______ , you used me . You use my name just because you didnt know what to do at that point of time . Please , have a life . If you know that youre in the wrong then just admit it , why do you need to use my name ? You think its fo fun to use my name is it ? I dont know whats wrong with you people . You all been using my name since last time . And why the hell you use my name for ? There's like alot of people in this world and you choose my name . Enough about that damn thing . Life at home been pretty unpleasent . Having ______ in my life just make it worse . Am not referring to my parents , fyi . If youre already ashame with something then gosh damn it dont make that serious fcuking face . You think you own the world is it ? Like whathehell sia . You never realized what youve done , and even if you realized , you'll make that fcuking face . Seriously , its damn irritating , get that in your head can ? . And back to the first point . Youre not even helping me , youre just making my life miserable . Yes i choose to be truthful here because youve been very truthfully sarcoustic in your blog . And if you get hurt by this post or what , then thats how i feel . You choose me to make the first move . Did you ever admit your fault sincerely . Even if you know i was mad at you that time , dont you even dare to even text me ? You wont even text me till i text you first . I know after reading this you'll be like whatthehell or whatsoever . But let me tell you , do you even care about how i feel ? You said , ' Dont tell me that u cant even read my emotions? ' . Let me ask you back , can you read my emotions ? Do you EVEN care about how i feel ? Do you even know what im going through right now ? Do you even know how tired i am everyday ? Do you even know anything ? Do you even have the time to care ? DO YOU ? I know the things have passed , but after recalling it back , i seriously seriously feel like giving up . Giving fake promises wont heal my heart . History repeat itself , it happens alot in my life . I think im gonna stop saying about it now . And sorry for saying it . I gotta somehow let it out because i cant keep it any longer . Maybe i was pretty ok ytd or something . But i still feel hurt after that incident . Haish , history does repeat itself . Gonna end here . And i just gotta know that some of my relative are in the hospital or something . I gotta know that one of my cousin grandma is in the hospital . I just gotta know that one of my atuk sedara just died , just as in ard 1.50+ pm at a wedding ceremony . But its in melaka so i cant possibly go there and visit due to tommorow's school . And my another atuk sedara which is in melaka is now is KL hospital due to stroke . How i wish i could visit them but in this state ? Dont think soo . And now i wanna go to my late granny graveyard but parents are busy because they need to go to melaka now , haish . How can things get any worser than this :( . I guess im done .
Bye .

2010-02-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

Wont be updating this blog for a few days as i do not have a sweet post , to post . Life been pretty , urmm i dont know how to describe it . But its pretty bad though . Dont wish to throw out my feelings here as im pretty scared if anybody got HURT or anything . So bye lovelys . Will post something a.s.a.p .

2010-02-01T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hello Lovelys
I know i havent been updating my blog for like more then a week . Im sorry ok peoples :D , so yeah , basically nothing special happen , only a sadful event happen on friday . It was soo sudden , i wish i could actually spend more time with my grandma , shes only 64 years old though , nvm , still she was smiling on that day , so im happy for that :) , may you rest in peace grandma , and yes i loveyouveryyyyymuch , and i really do mean it . You really do care about my life , and not to forget my values and education , you thaught me all the values , and im proud o have a grandma like you . I (L) you granny .
So yeah , one month have passed and its going smooth , except for school though , maybe its because of a new class , maybe i guess . ok so yeah , class is going smooth now though . And not to say me and (L) , been going smooth though . One month have passed ekh :D , and sorry i couldnt _____ you . You know why rightttt , i hope you understand okey , hehh . standard siaa , why must the letters come on every 1st , ass btol . Okey so yeah , i guess im done , i was force to update my blog by ________ . Okey
Bye lovelys

Dear (L) ,
Thanks so much for always being there for me . Always making me smile . Never fought with me before , eventhough i know i was seriously irritating , trying to make you mad at me , i know thats stupid but i wanted to know your reaction , so im sorry okey . You were very patience towards my suckish behaviour . And i know i always complain to you about alot of stuffs , family school friends . Of whatever stuff . And you always tried your best to make me smile every single day . And sorry if i keep on saying dont text me dont text me , i know how irritated you are with that , but i hope you understand okey , ( you should know why ^^ ) . And sorry for having a busy schedule nowadays , im really am truly sorry . I know ive done lots of things to make you sad or mad at me , so i would like to say sorry once again . And lastly , its already one month , time pass by soo fast ^^ . Love you ass (: .

You taugh me how to love myself and because of that i fell in love with you . And the more i argue with you the more i love you .

Lovely Senior

2010-01-23T17:52:00.004+08:00

Hey Lovelys .
So yeah today i spend my day with some of the dancers . It was a total fun . So yeah before meeting the dancers , went to school first to send some malay homeworks . -_- , go to school just to send this , grr ! So yeah , let me make it short . went to gym with them , off to lot 1 , went to some voiddeck . Had a two hours++ talk with oneay about alot of stuffs . Okey thats my today .
Not in the right mood now ,
Bye lovelys
xoxo.

ihateschool

2010-01-23T08:15:00.003+08:00

Hey lovelys .
So yeah , im awake early in the morning just to finish my malay homework and then rush to school , and will be meeting some peeps later on . Kay seriously i dont understand this one person . And i gotta feeling ill be blame AGAIN soon . I just feel like as if they treat me like a blaming machine here . Like seriously , whats wrong with you ? Only bf know how i feel now . And seriously i feel like being admitted to the hospital or go anywhere but not school . I know school should be a fun place to go everyday , agree ? But seriously i just feel that sometimes youre just using me . Hey seriously if youre referring that to me , then refer that back to yourself okey ? Seriously for ONCE JUST ONCE , can i seriously have a PEACE in my life . Gosh damn it man . And only amalina know what i mean , right amalina ? Can i seriously dont go to school next week ? Please ? I may sound lame , but if ure in my position , you dont feel like going to school , trust me . You'll just hate school more now .
Bye lovelys
xoxo.

2010-01-22T18:59:00.002+08:00

Hey lovelys .
So yeah , i guess starting from now ill only update my blog once a weak . Due to busy schedule . I think ill be privating my blog for a week or two weeks , because i just dont have the mood to let public read my blog , will just see about that . So yeah , i manage to complete doing my art base . And im happy with it , im only left with the branches which is pretty irritating to do , -_- , So yeah , school been pretty bad these days , i gotta admit i hate all the homeworks . Like seriously ! Grrr , nvm about that . I just feel like telling all the teachers to reduce our homeworks because its like i got to many things , till i cant complete some of my works in time , maybe i need some time management or something . Nvm about that . So yeah , current mood is that ihateschool . Dont ask me about it . Kay gtg
Bye lovelys .